what happens when everyone else seems to be progressing and moving forward , and i'm the one left behind??
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
interpretation please...
what does it mean if i am scared of change, but also scared that things won't change?
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
the transforming power of faith and character...
a quote from General Conference that's been on my mind recently...
"We become what we want to be by consistently being what we want to become each day."
a promise from that same talk...
As your testimony is fortified, Satan will try harder to tempt you. Resist his efforts. You will become stronger and his influence on you weaker.
i am so grateful for General Conference and the fact that i can listen to whatever talk whenever i want to... now i just need to remember and follow the prophetic counsel that we've been blessed with.
watch or read Elder Richard G. Scott's talk....
much loves...
lace
"We become what we want to be by consistently being what we want to become each day."
a promise from that same talk...
As your testimony is fortified, Satan will try harder to tempt you. Resist his efforts. You will become stronger and his influence on you weaker.
i am so grateful for General Conference and the fact that i can listen to whatever talk whenever i want to... now i just need to remember and follow the prophetic counsel that we've been blessed with.
watch or read Elder Richard G. Scott's talk....
much loves...
lace
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
i am a daughter of God...
Heavenly Father has a plan for me, even though i really have no idea what that plan is or how to accomplish it, there is something greater going on here! and He loves me! that is something that i have forgotten lately, that God is in all actuality my Eternal Father and He really does love me more than i can comprehend. i hate that i get so frustrated, bitter, depressed, and really feeling at times that He is punishing me for no reason. yes, i know i make mistakes, sin, screw up, and am a complete idiot a majority of the time, but amazingly enough, that doesn't mean that He loves me any less. He may not be happy with what i do, say, or think, and i'm sure He shakes His head at me all of the time, but He loves me and wants the best for me. He is trying to teach me, but my hard-headed-stubbornness is just creating more problems for myself. God loves me! it's kind of odd, i always thought that i had a strong testimony of God's love for His children and the fact that i know i am a child of God but with writing these thoughts out, i see that i really am slacking with my relationship with Him.
i want to be this little girl and constantly feel the embrace of my Father and Savior, and put my complete trust in Them. i am in His hands, and for that i will be forever grateful.
time to get back on track! thanks for your constant patience, love, and support.
love,
lace
i want to be this little girl and constantly feel the embrace of my Father and Savior, and put my complete trust in Them. i am in His hands, and for that i will be forever grateful.
time to get back on track! thanks for your constant patience, love, and support.
love,
lace
endure...
so i haven't "blogged" in quite awhile mainly because i have been kinda busy but also because i feel like i have nothing really to say. i was reading my past blogs and am in awe of where i was physically, spiritually, emotionally, and even socially... oh how i've strayed so far away. i don't mean that i've gone off the "strait and narrow" or turned to the dark side by any means, but oh how things have changed and been rather difficult these past four months. looking back on how i was doing before the summer frustrates me with how much i've let myself fall, yet motivates me to get back to where i was... and you better believe that i will get back to being "myself" instead of just treading water.
"Constant effort-- not strength or intelligence-- is the key to unlocking your potential."
this is my motivation to just keep going. and seriously that was the feeling that i got in the temple at 6 am this morning, is to just endure. get through the season, get through the rehab, get through this mid-season slump with the team, get through the lack of sleep and pure exhaustion, and just take one step at a time. i can't solve all of my issues and problems or figure out my twenty year plan right now, i just need to focus on enduring one day at a time and to find joy in the small and simple things. after this crazy time passes, then i'll get to work on figuring things out... but as for now, this is what i'm supposed to be doing, i just need to do it a LOT better!
"Constant effort-- not strength or intelligence-- is the key to unlocking your potential."
this is my motivation to just keep going. and seriously that was the feeling that i got in the temple at 6 am this morning, is to just endure. get through the season, get through the rehab, get through this mid-season slump with the team, get through the lack of sleep and pure exhaustion, and just take one step at a time. i can't solve all of my issues and problems or figure out my twenty year plan right now, i just need to focus on enduring one day at a time and to find joy in the small and simple things. after this crazy time passes, then i'll get to work on figuring things out... but as for now, this is what i'm supposed to be doing, i just need to do it a LOT better!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
hurry... catch up!
yes, as always, i am a slacker! life just gets a little hectic right?! after so many days pass it's hard for me to get back on the blogging bandwagon cause i think there's just too much to catch up on, but in all actuality my life isn't too eventful so there's not much to say! plus, sometimes all ya need are the highlights!
simple pleasures and tender mercies in my blessed life...
~i can breathe again... after being congested and sounding like a man for a week, i'm very grateful to wake up in the morning and smell the opportunities of a new day!
~tax return... it may have taken me a long time to sit down and do my taxes, but that tax return is a sweet little blessing! shopping anyone?!
~sunshine... i love utah sunshine, and am so grateful for the warmth we've had for the past week... minus the snow storm this morning! sun please come back!
~skype is greatest tool of communication ever... i love that i can stay connected with my dearest sister and her precious family even though we are opposite sides of the country (not to mention skype is wonderful for connecting continents too)... but doing pedicures with mylee over skype is one of my lifetime highlights! i heart mylee! oh, and of course kai sang "follow the prophet" to me which just added to that perfect night on skype. they are my favorites!
~the tender testimony of a 6 year old... wonderful seth let mylee get out of bed and share her primary talk with me over skype. definitely the sweetest thing i've ever heard, and just an incredibly spiritual experience! it's amazing how much we can learn from children!
~power of prayer... "ask and ye shall receive", enough said!
~cougars... yes, i guess i'm grateful for those blasted cougars who live down the road. they brought my dearest maegan back to utah, so i guess i need to show some appreciation.
~utah temples... i definitely take for granted the many temples here in utah. the fact that i can pass like 6 of them in 30 minutes is pretty remarkable! i love temple and am so grateful that i have so many at my fingertips, and that i've been able to go with my temple buddy these past few weeks!
~general conference... ha, i'm sitting here and don't know what to type about the incredible conference! some of the greatest messages, as always! those incredible men and leaders of the Church are called of God! what a remarkable weekend! i just pray that i won't take their great messages for granted and that i'll continue to study them.
~a quiet home... we had some extra albanians stay at the apartment for a week, and i'm definitely enjoying each quiet moment at home now a lot more.
~the Holy Ghost... He brings peace and testifies of truth. such simple and quiet feelings, but the times that i feel His presence are definitely moments that i should never forget.
~patient pants... it is a tender mercy and such a huge blessing to have such incredible people in my life! not only are they amazing examples, but they are so patient and accepting of me, and i'm truly blessed and so grateful that they put up with me! thank you!
simple pleasures and tender mercies in my blessed life...
~i can breathe again... after being congested and sounding like a man for a week, i'm very grateful to wake up in the morning and smell the opportunities of a new day!
~tax return... it may have taken me a long time to sit down and do my taxes, but that tax return is a sweet little blessing! shopping anyone?!
~sunshine... i love utah sunshine, and am so grateful for the warmth we've had for the past week... minus the snow storm this morning! sun please come back!
~skype is greatest tool of communication ever... i love that i can stay connected with my dearest sister and her precious family even though we are opposite sides of the country (not to mention skype is wonderful for connecting continents too)... but doing pedicures with mylee over skype is one of my lifetime highlights! i heart mylee! oh, and of course kai sang "follow the prophet" to me which just added to that perfect night on skype. they are my favorites!
~the tender testimony of a 6 year old... wonderful seth let mylee get out of bed and share her primary talk with me over skype. definitely the sweetest thing i've ever heard, and just an incredibly spiritual experience! it's amazing how much we can learn from children!
~power of prayer... "ask and ye shall receive", enough said!
~cougars... yes, i guess i'm grateful for those blasted cougars who live down the road. they brought my dearest maegan back to utah, so i guess i need to show some appreciation.
~utah temples... i definitely take for granted the many temples here in utah. the fact that i can pass like 6 of them in 30 minutes is pretty remarkable! i love temple and am so grateful that i have so many at my fingertips, and that i've been able to go with my temple buddy these past few weeks!
~general conference... ha, i'm sitting here and don't know what to type about the incredible conference! some of the greatest messages, as always! those incredible men and leaders of the Church are called of God! what a remarkable weekend! i just pray that i won't take their great messages for granted and that i'll continue to study them.
~a quiet home... we had some extra albanians stay at the apartment for a week, and i'm definitely enjoying each quiet moment at home now a lot more.
~the Holy Ghost... He brings peace and testifies of truth. such simple and quiet feelings, but the times that i feel His presence are definitely moments that i should never forget.
~patient pants... it is a tender mercy and such a huge blessing to have such incredible people in my life! not only are they amazing examples, but they are so patient and accepting of me, and i'm truly blessed and so grateful that they put up with me! thank you!
"In all of living have much of fun and laughter. Life is to be enjoyed, not just endured."
Thursday, April 1, 2010
the last song... day 11
finally...
i think the only thing that kept me going today was the excitment to see the movie, the last song... and it definitely did not disappoint! yes, the movie is completely different from the book, and the book is way better, but he was hot!! great movie, good times with my movie buddy, and just happiness!
april fools...
so we definitely had some good plans to get the girls on this great day of pranks, but unfortunately practice did not go as planned and sam was not in the joking mood. blast! running and getting thrown out of practice will have to wait til next year!
prisoners in our own home...
my dear roommate, florida, has had her mom some other albanians staying with her this week. this means that our house has been taken over by foreigners, well jess and i feel like the foreigners, but our house is not our own this week. we're hoping to have our sanctuary back tommrow or saturday or sunday for that matter, but we're happy to help and will be more happy to be back to normalcy!
random...
all i want to do lately is play the piano! someday!
i'm grateful that it's the weekend! i'm tired! happy day!
i think the only thing that kept me going today was the excitment to see the movie, the last song... and it definitely did not disappoint! yes, the movie is completely different from the book, and the book is way better, but he was hot!! great movie, good times with my movie buddy, and just happiness!
april fools...
so we definitely had some good plans to get the girls on this great day of pranks, but unfortunately practice did not go as planned and sam was not in the joking mood. blast! running and getting thrown out of practice will have to wait til next year!
prisoners in our own home...
my dear roommate, florida, has had her mom some other albanians staying with her this week. this means that our house has been taken over by foreigners, well jess and i feel like the foreigners, but our house is not our own this week. we're hoping to have our sanctuary back tommrow or saturday or sunday for that matter, but we're happy to help and will be more happy to be back to normalcy!
random...
all i want to do lately is play the piano! someday!
i'm grateful that it's the weekend! i'm tired! happy day!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
make good choices... day 10
choose ye this day...
i'm continually learning that everything is a choice... get up early or sleep in? work out or not? be to work on time or stroll in late? eat the cookie or eat some celery? pick up the phone or ignore it? make the best of a situation or be grumpy pants? read the scriptures or go to bed ten minutes sooner? say hi or walk on by? love my job or painfully suffer?
life is all about choices, and i need to start making "good" choices consistently. i am usually pretty indecisive about things cause it doesn't matter either way, but i need to be more determined to choose the right (yes, so cliche), and Commit to it!
it's my choice to be happy, healthy, spiritual, cheerful, determined, interactive, open, the list goes on and on! i am in Control... and what i can't control, i'm not going to worry about it :)
"loved ones"...
i find that i use this phrase in my prayers a lot! and whilst thinking about it, "loved ones" encompasses everyone that i love and care about... mom, dad, siblings, niece, nephews, grandparents, extended family, roomies, friends, players, coaches, basically a lot of people! i find it much easier to say "loved ones" then to name everyone off, lazy i know! but i'm very grateful for the incredible people i have in my life. i can't express how much their love, care, patience, and examples mean to me, but i'll be eternally grateful for them.
and now, i'm choosing to read and go to bed... tomorrow is practice and the last song! so excited!!
i'm continually learning that everything is a choice... get up early or sleep in? work out or not? be to work on time or stroll in late? eat the cookie or eat some celery? pick up the phone or ignore it? make the best of a situation or be grumpy pants? read the scriptures or go to bed ten minutes sooner? say hi or walk on by? love my job or painfully suffer?
life is all about choices, and i need to start making "good" choices consistently. i am usually pretty indecisive about things cause it doesn't matter either way, but i need to be more determined to choose the right (yes, so cliche), and Commit to it!
it's my choice to be happy, healthy, spiritual, cheerful, determined, interactive, open, the list goes on and on! i am in Control... and what i can't control, i'm not going to worry about it :)
"loved ones"...
i find that i use this phrase in my prayers a lot! and whilst thinking about it, "loved ones" encompasses everyone that i love and care about... mom, dad, siblings, niece, nephews, grandparents, extended family, roomies, friends, players, coaches, basically a lot of people! i find it much easier to say "loved ones" then to name everyone off, lazy i know! but i'm very grateful for the incredible people i have in my life. i can't express how much their love, care, patience, and examples mean to me, but i'll be eternally grateful for them.
and now, i'm choosing to read and go to bed... tomorrow is practice and the last song! so excited!!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
there is learning in all things... day 9
i'm grateful that even though today started not the best, that throughout the day it made a complete 180 and life makes sense again! i was a bit emotional and unmotivated this morning, but i got to go to institute which was awesome, and really it was interaction with others that made things turn around!
what i've learned/relearned today...
-i need to learn how to relax and stop stressing about things i can't control!
-sleep is definitely not overrated and is necessary for my happiness and sanity!
-i receive "revelation" or "promptings" as simple thoughts that come into my mind
-there's nothing like being in the Celestial room at the temple
-my day is not complete without taking to my mom
-i have minor freak-outs when i think about going to new zealand, but am not going to worry about it and just let things happen... live it up, right!?
-life is blissful when i have other people to share it with... i need to stop thinking i can do it all by myself because i can't!
i truly believe that Heavenly Father teaches me something in every little thing from the second i wake up til i go to bed at night, and even in my dreams. i need to be better at recognizing what i'm supposed to learn from each experience, remembering it, and applying it to life... in "samoan" terms, i need to learn the principles that Heavenly Father is trying to teach me, put them in my "toolbox", and bust them out when the opportunity arrives! (yes, that's a volleyball analogy from sam)
i'm grateful for the joy others bring into my life... thank you and goodnight!
ps... banana bread was my downfall today!
what i've learned/relearned today...
-i need to learn how to relax and stop stressing about things i can't control!
-sleep is definitely not overrated and is necessary for my happiness and sanity!
-i receive "revelation" or "promptings" as simple thoughts that come into my mind
-there's nothing like being in the Celestial room at the temple
-my day is not complete without taking to my mom
-i have minor freak-outs when i think about going to new zealand, but am not going to worry about it and just let things happen... live it up, right!?
-life is blissful when i have other people to share it with... i need to stop thinking i can do it all by myself because i can't!
i truly believe that Heavenly Father teaches me something in every little thing from the second i wake up til i go to bed at night, and even in my dreams. i need to be better at recognizing what i'm supposed to learn from each experience, remembering it, and applying it to life... in "samoan" terms, i need to learn the principles that Heavenly Father is trying to teach me, put them in my "toolbox", and bust them out when the opportunity arrives! (yes, that's a volleyball analogy from sam)
i'm grateful for the joy others bring into my life... thank you and goodnight!
ps... banana bread was my downfall today!
Monday, March 29, 2010
day 6... day 7... day 8...
"life is much like a song. in the beginning there is mystery, in the end there is confirmation, but it's in the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile"
"whenever i hear the song of a bird or look at the blue, blue sky,
whenever i feel the rain on my face or the wind as it rushes by,
whenever i touch a velvet rose or walk by a lilac tree,
i'm glad that i live in this beautiful world Heavenly Father created for me."
"line upon line, precept upon precept"
"to love is to place your happiness in the happiness of another"
"if you're doing the best you can, you won't have to worry about failure"
"i don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is tryin to please everybody"
"life can either be accepted or changed. if it is not accepted, it must be changed. if it cannot be changed, then it mst be accepted."
"sometimes to have to be apart from the ones you love to make you love them more"
"Believe in yourselves as sons and daughters of God--men and women with unlimited potential to do good in the world. Believe in personal virtue. There is no substitute for it anywhere under the heavens. Believe in your power to discipline yoursleves against the evils that could destroy you. Believe in one another as the greatest generation ever yet to live upon the earth." -President Gordon B. Hinckley
these are some quotes for the past few days. i feel like whenever i think have things under control, i'm thrown a curve ball! thankfully it's nothing too serious ever, mostly just me having to deal with change. so if people and life around me are changing, then i get to change too... and that's change for the better of course!
"whenever i hear the song of a bird or look at the blue, blue sky,
whenever i feel the rain on my face or the wind as it rushes by,
whenever i touch a velvet rose or walk by a lilac tree,
i'm glad that i live in this beautiful world Heavenly Father created for me."
"line upon line, precept upon precept"
"to love is to place your happiness in the happiness of another"
"if you're doing the best you can, you won't have to worry about failure"
"i don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is tryin to please everybody"
"life can either be accepted or changed. if it is not accepted, it must be changed. if it cannot be changed, then it mst be accepted."
"sometimes to have to be apart from the ones you love to make you love them more"
"Believe in yourselves as sons and daughters of God--men and women with unlimited potential to do good in the world. Believe in personal virtue. There is no substitute for it anywhere under the heavens. Believe in your power to discipline yoursleves against the evils that could destroy you. Believe in one another as the greatest generation ever yet to live upon the earth." -President Gordon B. Hinckley
these are some quotes for the past few days. i feel like whenever i think have things under control, i'm thrown a curve ball! thankfully it's nothing too serious ever, mostly just me having to deal with change. so if people and life around me are changing, then i get to change too... and that's change for the better of course!
and i had to put the most recent picture of kai in here. jake sent me this today, they're partying it up in virginia without me! fetchers :)
three letters for today... P.M.S... please, more sugar!
Friday, March 26, 2010
life goes on... day 5
i finished the last song tonight! amazing book, and now i can go back to normal life... or just start another book :) i definitely recommend it though and i'm super excited for the movie next week! seriously though, i've put so much on hold because when i read i get obsessed and don't stop til i finish. thank goodness i'm finished!
classic quote from the book...
"Life was much like a song. In the beginning there is mystery, in the end there is confirmation , but it's in the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile."
another good, long, busy day, but really that's how i need them so i stay out of trouble! but there is just something joyous about fridays, especially when i get to start it off with kickboxing! there's no need to go into the details of my everyday routine, but i do gotta say that the people i'm around definitely make my "routine" much more enjoyable and purposeful.
personal victory of today... i made cookie dough for a birthday this morning and i didn't even have a taste! it's the weekend now though, so let's hope i don't fall off the wagon!
organization and real content is in my near future, but until then i'm enjoying the craziness but i'm excited for things to slow down!
classic quote from the book...
"Life was much like a song. In the beginning there is mystery, in the end there is confirmation , but it's in the middle where all the emotion resides to make the whole thing worthwhile."
another good, long, busy day, but really that's how i need them so i stay out of trouble! but there is just something joyous about fridays, especially when i get to start it off with kickboxing! there's no need to go into the details of my everyday routine, but i do gotta say that the people i'm around definitely make my "routine" much more enjoyable and purposeful.
personal victory of today... i made cookie dough for a birthday this morning and i didn't even have a taste! it's the weekend now though, so let's hope i don't fall off the wagon!
organization and real content is in my near future, but until then i'm enjoying the craziness but i'm excited for things to slow down!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
follow the prophet... day 4
i'm so grateful for days like today! nothing out of the norm really, besides it being lauren's birthday of course! but it was a day of good conversations, productivity (minus me reading all the time!), good times with friends, and some personal victories.
my thought right this second...
i need to stop feeling bad or be worried about others judging me or criticizing me because of the weird things i do or say, what i wear, how i spend my time, what i choose to eat or not eat, how often i talk to my mom, or even how many exclamation points i put at the end of a sentence... this is who i am! yes, i have so many weaknesses, faults, and so many issues i need to get better at, really, i have so much work to do... but i am who i am, weirdness and all, and all i can do is strive to do better and truly come unto Christ. the end
and two quotes that go along with this thought...
-can't touch this!
- you can only control two things, your attitude and your effort
my apologies for these first few blogs being totally random and vague! i'm totally obsessed with a book right now and my priorities are a bit screwed up at the moment... yes, i'm staying up late, shame on me :) but order and organization will be here shortly!
ps... kai sang "follow the prophet" to me today, and it was probably the most adorable thing ever! heart him :)
yay for a friday tomorrow!
my thought right this second...
i need to stop feeling bad or be worried about others judging me or criticizing me because of the weird things i do or say, what i wear, how i spend my time, what i choose to eat or not eat, how often i talk to my mom, or even how many exclamation points i put at the end of a sentence... this is who i am! yes, i have so many weaknesses, faults, and so many issues i need to get better at, really, i have so much work to do... but i am who i am, weirdness and all, and all i can do is strive to do better and truly come unto Christ. the end
and two quotes that go along with this thought...
-can't touch this!
- you can only control two things, your attitude and your effort
my apologies for these first few blogs being totally random and vague! i'm totally obsessed with a book right now and my priorities are a bit screwed up at the moment... yes, i'm staying up late, shame on me :) but order and organization will be here shortly!
ps... kai sang "follow the prophet" to me today, and it was probably the most adorable thing ever! heart him :)
yay for a friday tomorrow!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
too many thoughts... day 3
today's been full of fun and busy-ness which i always appreciate in my life... but unfortunately it's already 11:30 at night and i've been home for about a half hour since i left for work this morning! so yes, i'm a little tired, and my "feeding" schedule was messed up a little bit and i just ate a bowl of cereal... who does that at 11:30 at night?! i guess i'm just grateful i didn't go for the ice cream or cookie dough! little successes, right?!
i have way too many things on my mind at the moment with volleyball, friends, change, life, and everything! it's a time when sleep will cure all these stresses, but unfortunately there is a lack and i have to cut this short!
my three favorite things of today though are...
A. i had a great talk with a friend/coworker about the greatness of dating and being single. i felt it as a breakthrough for our friendship just cause we've never really had a serious talk, but i definitely enjoyed it!
2. happy birthday mom and malia and ethan! (they are 3 of my favorites anyday of the week!)
D. i got to see legally blonde: the musical with lauren and chelsea in salt lake... it was so so good and pretty funny! i love musicals!
and 7. (yeah i know i said three, but i had to add this) i'm completely enthraled in book, the last song! all i want to do is read!
i'm so blessed and grateful for the life that i've been given. there are some changes that will be happening in the next few months, so i'm nervous and excited to see how everything plays out and what Heavenly Father has in store for me!
i have way too many things on my mind at the moment with volleyball, friends, change, life, and everything! it's a time when sleep will cure all these stresses, but unfortunately there is a lack and i have to cut this short!
my three favorite things of today though are...
A. i had a great talk with a friend/coworker about the greatness of dating and being single. i felt it as a breakthrough for our friendship just cause we've never really had a serious talk, but i definitely enjoyed it!
2. happy birthday mom and malia and ethan! (they are 3 of my favorites anyday of the week!)
D. i got to see legally blonde: the musical with lauren and chelsea in salt lake... it was so so good and pretty funny! i love musicals!
and 7. (yeah i know i said three, but i had to add this) i'm completely enthraled in book, the last song! all i want to do is read!
i'm so blessed and grateful for the life that i've been given. there are some changes that will be happening in the next few months, so i'm nervous and excited to see how everything plays out and what Heavenly Father has in store for me!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
do and become... day 2
the Spirit and Lord's timing never cease to amaze me, even with the simplest of things! you know when you go to church or institute, read an ensign article or listen to a conference talk, and it seems like everything that is taught is directed specifically at you??? i feel like that ALL of the time and i have the feeling that it isn't a coincidence!
this morning at institute we discussed the short book of 4th Nephi. it's one chapter long but spans over a time period of a few hundred years and in essence is a summary of the great cycle that happens throughout the entire Book of Mormon. a huge part of the lesson was the meaning of true conversion. as brother norby was discussing conversion and everything it entails, i couldn't help but think about my great "C" challenge, and just everything i need to work on and who i want to become. basically i want to become truly converted unto the Lord, so yes, add another C to the list, as the title really... Conversion!
Elder Dallin H. Oaks...
"We qualify for eternal life through process of conversion. As used here, this word of many meanings signifies not just a convincing but a profound change of nature... Jesus' challenge [to be converted] shows that the conversion He required for those who would enter the kingdom of heaven was far more than just being converted to testify to the truthfulness of the gospel. To testify is to know and to declare. The gospel challenges us to be 'converted,' which requires us to do and to become."
this goes great with my goals, to do and to become! thank you for this great lesson that couldn't have come at a more perfect time!
volleyball...
we had a girl quit the team today. she has a lot of problems going on with her parents at home and her brother leaving on a mission, and she just has a lot of issues in general, but she told us today that volleyball doesn't make her happy, she has never had the passion for it, she only did it to make her dad happy, and she can't see herself playing for another two years. long story short, we all are very supportive of her decision, wish her the best, and will definitely miss her presence on the team. and of course this experience got me thinking about my "passions" and yes, volleyball has definitely been one of the greatest passions in my life! i truly love it and can't imagine my life without it. i'm grateful for the opportunities i had to play, and all the sacrifices of time and money from my parents. oh the glory days of playing! now volleyball is more of a job than a passion, but i'm so grateful that i still get to be involved and that it is my work. how i got so fortunate and blessed in this life, i'll never know!
highlights of the day...
-started reading "the last song"! i have a week to finish it before the movie... love it :)
-began the great search of finding "theme songs" for the great people in my life... i'm such a dork and have different ring tones for people!
-early morning run... still on the treadmill, but someday it'll be light enough and i'll get the guts to run outside
-another "no sugar" day!
-cooked dinner... i love stir-frys with salad! easy and delicious!
-enjoyed watching the biggest loser with jess... and i didn't eat ice cream or cookie dough this time!
-wore my sweet pink headband today... thanks mommy :)
-watched the "behind the scenes" footage from one of my greatest vb trips of all time! i had the greatest teammates!
-i get to read more and go to sleep... yay!
i'm grateful for a wonderful, pretty routine day. it may be back to the drawing board with recruiting, but i know things will work out!
thanks for your patience ;)
this morning at institute we discussed the short book of 4th Nephi. it's one chapter long but spans over a time period of a few hundred years and in essence is a summary of the great cycle that happens throughout the entire Book of Mormon. a huge part of the lesson was the meaning of true conversion. as brother norby was discussing conversion and everything it entails, i couldn't help but think about my great "C" challenge, and just everything i need to work on and who i want to become. basically i want to become truly converted unto the Lord, so yes, add another C to the list, as the title really... Conversion!
Elder Dallin H. Oaks...
"We qualify for eternal life through process of conversion. As used here, this word of many meanings signifies not just a convincing but a profound change of nature... Jesus' challenge [to be converted] shows that the conversion He required for those who would enter the kingdom of heaven was far more than just being converted to testify to the truthfulness of the gospel. To testify is to know and to declare. The gospel challenges us to be 'converted,' which requires us to do and to become."
this goes great with my goals, to do and to become! thank you for this great lesson that couldn't have come at a more perfect time!
volleyball...
we had a girl quit the team today. she has a lot of problems going on with her parents at home and her brother leaving on a mission, and she just has a lot of issues in general, but she told us today that volleyball doesn't make her happy, she has never had the passion for it, she only did it to make her dad happy, and she can't see herself playing for another two years. long story short, we all are very supportive of her decision, wish her the best, and will definitely miss her presence on the team. and of course this experience got me thinking about my "passions" and yes, volleyball has definitely been one of the greatest passions in my life! i truly love it and can't imagine my life without it. i'm grateful for the opportunities i had to play, and all the sacrifices of time and money from my parents. oh the glory days of playing! now volleyball is more of a job than a passion, but i'm so grateful that i still get to be involved and that it is my work. how i got so fortunate and blessed in this life, i'll never know!
highlights of the day...
-started reading "the last song"! i have a week to finish it before the movie... love it :)
-began the great search of finding "theme songs" for the great people in my life... i'm such a dork and have different ring tones for people!
-early morning run... still on the treadmill, but someday it'll be light enough and i'll get the guts to run outside
-another "no sugar" day!
-cooked dinner... i love stir-frys with salad! easy and delicious!
-enjoyed watching the biggest loser with jess... and i didn't eat ice cream or cookie dough this time!
-wore my sweet pink headband today... thanks mommy :)
-watched the "behind the scenes" footage from one of my greatest vb trips of all time! i had the greatest teammates!
-i get to read more and go to sleep... yay!
i'm grateful for a wonderful, pretty routine day. it may be back to the drawing board with recruiting, but i know things will work out!
thanks for your patience ;)
Monday, March 22, 2010
back in action... day 1
catch up...
my procrastination and laziness is officially over, and i'm back and roaring to go! i wish i could remember what's been going on the past few weeks, but they've been a blur! let's see if i can think of some highlights...
-recruiting and lots of it... from st. george to denver to salt lake to orem!
-volleyball practice, clinic, work-outs, meetings... my life :)
-new zealand/samoa planning... i can't wait!
-movie watching... remember me is my favorite at the moment
-hanging out with dear friends... we can do nothing and i'm completely content!
-visit from maegan... way to short, but i'll take what i can get
-new cousin... jackson chesley davies
-weekend in vegas... sun, massage, food, family, great friends... it was amazing!
six week "C" challenge...
so procrastination and set-backs are just part of who i am, but today i'm starting anew and its day 1 of 42 to whip myself back into shape in all aspects of life. i know i'm a dork for always having to do these "challenges" or "projects" but i do better when A. i have set goals and a time limit, 2. when i'm held accountable for what i do, and D. i just like to make it like a game cause it's just more fun! it's time for me to be done with bad habits and to move forward, make some life-style changes, and get over this hump! i have my plan written out, my charts made, my goals set, my support system, my quotes ready, and my eye on the prize! (ha, the prize being me a little bit better than when i started)
why a "C" challenge?? i have no idea, ha! it started off as me recognizing how terrible i am at committment (any and all kinds) and how i wanted to gain self-control and learn how to communicate better, so that just got the ball rolling! so here are my C's (and other suggestions of what i need to work on are definitely welcomed and appreciated, cause i know i have many weaknesses!)
COMMITTMENT...
i don't like being tied down to things, and really, when it comes to guys it scares me (i think/hope a big part of that is because i haven't met the "right" guy). but i need to get better at sticking to things and doing what i say i'm going to do... if i'm gonna talk the talk, i have to walk the walk! so the goal is that this six week deal will teach me how to commit to something and go all out!
COVENANT...
i love the gospel and it is the greatest blessing in my life, and as much as i want to say that Jesus Christ is the center of my life that would not be completely true. i lose focus and slack off, and i really don't and can't fully comprehend the significance of the Savior's atonement and the precious covenants i've made at baptism and in the temple. like i know they're important and i'm blessed to be endowed, but i've only skimmed the surface and want to dig deeper and fully grasp onto these sacred covenants, and truly have the Savior at the center of my heart and soul. i think if i had a better understanding of my covenants and the atonement, then i would be able to push off the natural man and stand my ground.
CONTROL...
yes, i need to gain some serious control over my thoughts, words, and deeds in every part of life. but especially for these six weeks, i have to get better at my self control when it comes to food! just because i have to make a cookie or there's brownies on the table, doesn't mean i need to eat them all, right! it's time for me to learn the meaning of moderation!
COMMUNICATE...
i really don't think i have to even explain this one! besides a select few of my favorites, i'm not a good communicator at all! everyone i know can attest to this, and i really do want to get better and break down the wall!
CARE...
mainly i need to show others how much i care, love, and appreciate them cause i definitely don't do this enough. but i also need to show care to the details and just be precise in the work that i do.
CONFIDENCE...
i have always had a struggle with self confidence and self esteem, really who doesn't?! so yeah i want to get better at that, but i really want learn how to show Heavenly Father that i have faith and confidence in Him, His plan for me, His timing, and want to gain that confidence to know that i have divine potential and He will help me know and do His will. also, i need to study and learn about the atonement so i can have confidence and trust in my Savior and truly let him take away my pain and heartache because He's already suffered for it and is the only one that can truly succor me.
CHANGE...
this is more of the process, to continually be changing and improving and to make even the smallest of steps in the right direction. it doesn't matter how fast you go, as long as you're going in the right direction, right?!
and yes, i know all of these things will take longer than six weeks to Conquer and they are areas of my life that i will always have to constantly be working to improve... this is just a step in the right direction.
well, that's what i'm starting to work on at the moment... "this is it, no turning back" :) but be ready for the in's and out's of this great process which really is just blessed life!
"you should live by faith realizing every day that all power rests with God, and that it is through Him that we are able to live in peace and enjoy plenty"
until tomorrow... nothing but love and pure happiness ;)
my procrastination and laziness is officially over, and i'm back and roaring to go! i wish i could remember what's been going on the past few weeks, but they've been a blur! let's see if i can think of some highlights...
-recruiting and lots of it... from st. george to denver to salt lake to orem!
-volleyball practice, clinic, work-outs, meetings... my life :)
-new zealand/samoa planning... i can't wait!
-movie watching... remember me is my favorite at the moment
-hanging out with dear friends... we can do nothing and i'm completely content!
-visit from maegan... way to short, but i'll take what i can get
-new cousin... jackson chesley davies
-weekend in vegas... sun, massage, food, family, great friends... it was amazing!
six week "C" challenge...
so procrastination and set-backs are just part of who i am, but today i'm starting anew and its day 1 of 42 to whip myself back into shape in all aspects of life. i know i'm a dork for always having to do these "challenges" or "projects" but i do better when A. i have set goals and a time limit, 2. when i'm held accountable for what i do, and D. i just like to make it like a game cause it's just more fun! it's time for me to be done with bad habits and to move forward, make some life-style changes, and get over this hump! i have my plan written out, my charts made, my goals set, my support system, my quotes ready, and my eye on the prize! (ha, the prize being me a little bit better than when i started)
why a "C" challenge?? i have no idea, ha! it started off as me recognizing how terrible i am at committment (any and all kinds) and how i wanted to gain self-control and learn how to communicate better, so that just got the ball rolling! so here are my C's (and other suggestions of what i need to work on are definitely welcomed and appreciated, cause i know i have many weaknesses!)
COMMITTMENT...
i don't like being tied down to things, and really, when it comes to guys it scares me (i think/hope a big part of that is because i haven't met the "right" guy). but i need to get better at sticking to things and doing what i say i'm going to do... if i'm gonna talk the talk, i have to walk the walk! so the goal is that this six week deal will teach me how to commit to something and go all out!
COVENANT...
i love the gospel and it is the greatest blessing in my life, and as much as i want to say that Jesus Christ is the center of my life that would not be completely true. i lose focus and slack off, and i really don't and can't fully comprehend the significance of the Savior's atonement and the precious covenants i've made at baptism and in the temple. like i know they're important and i'm blessed to be endowed, but i've only skimmed the surface and want to dig deeper and fully grasp onto these sacred covenants, and truly have the Savior at the center of my heart and soul. i think if i had a better understanding of my covenants and the atonement, then i would be able to push off the natural man and stand my ground.
CONTROL...
yes, i need to gain some serious control over my thoughts, words, and deeds in every part of life. but especially for these six weeks, i have to get better at my self control when it comes to food! just because i have to make a cookie or there's brownies on the table, doesn't mean i need to eat them all, right! it's time for me to learn the meaning of moderation!
COMMUNICATE...
i really don't think i have to even explain this one! besides a select few of my favorites, i'm not a good communicator at all! everyone i know can attest to this, and i really do want to get better and break down the wall!
CARE...
mainly i need to show others how much i care, love, and appreciate them cause i definitely don't do this enough. but i also need to show care to the details and just be precise in the work that i do.
CONFIDENCE...
i have always had a struggle with self confidence and self esteem, really who doesn't?! so yeah i want to get better at that, but i really want learn how to show Heavenly Father that i have faith and confidence in Him, His plan for me, His timing, and want to gain that confidence to know that i have divine potential and He will help me know and do His will. also, i need to study and learn about the atonement so i can have confidence and trust in my Savior and truly let him take away my pain and heartache because He's already suffered for it and is the only one that can truly succor me.
CHANGE...
this is more of the process, to continually be changing and improving and to make even the smallest of steps in the right direction. it doesn't matter how fast you go, as long as you're going in the right direction, right?!
and yes, i know all of these things will take longer than six weeks to Conquer and they are areas of my life that i will always have to constantly be working to improve... this is just a step in the right direction.
well, that's what i'm starting to work on at the moment... "this is it, no turning back" :) but be ready for the in's and out's of this great process which really is just blessed life!
"you should live by faith realizing every day that all power rests with God, and that it is through Him that we are able to live in peace and enjoy plenty"
until tomorrow... nothing but love and pure happiness ;)
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
REMEMBER...
that's not my name, that's not my name...
yes, i'm quoting the song by the ting tings cause that's the first thing i thought of when we were taking about names in institute... yeah, the ting tings and institute probably shouldn't mix!
Helaman 5:6... "remember your names"
this is when Helaman counsels his sons Nephi and Lehi to remember who they were named after and what they represent.
application...i haven't been named after anyone particular, but i do hold my families name and need to honor it and live up to the standards my family and ancestors have set. i need to make them proud, and stop screwing up!!
this thought of "remembering" your name, segwayed right into our lesson about the sacrament. not only do we have our own names and family names to represent, but as baptized members of the church we covenant to take upon us the name of Christ and always remember Him. as we remember Him and keep His commandments we have been promised that we may always have His spirit. such an awesome promise! i need to do better at remembering the covenants and in keeping the commandments each day, but i also need to focus more during the actual renewing on sunday. Elder Oaks has a great talk called "Sacrament Meeting and the Sacrament" from oct 09 conference that we referred to today, and there's awesome counsel about how to approach the meeting and the sacrament.
anyways, back to "remember", here's a quote from President Spencer W. Kimball about it...
"When you look in the dictionary for the most important work, do you know what it is? It could be remember. Because all of you have made covenants - you know what to do and you know how to do it - our greatest need is to remember. That is why everyone goes to sacrament meeting every Sabbath day - to take the sacrament and listen to the priests pray 'they may always remember Him and keep His commandments which He has given them.' Remember is the word. Remember is the program."
another great lesson in institute that reminded me of the great significance of the sacrament and the incredible covenants that i have made. i have a lot of work to do in order to hold up my end of the deal, and i'm grateful for my Savior, His love, and the role He plays as my advocate to the Father.
35 minute run and planks
nutrition...
6:00am- apple
9:00am- banana and yogurt
11:00am- carrots and celery
1:00pm- salad w/chicken, peach and cottage cheese
6:30pm- 1/2 enchilada w/lettuce and guac
7:30pm- cookie dough! (my downfall for the evening... but i didn't eat as much as normal, and i don't have to make it for awhile!)
h20-10 cups
constantly learning...
i'm grateful for the patience of others. i can be pretty stubborn, cranky, and irrational a lot of the time, yet my blessed family and friends put up with me. i have so much to learn and to work on. when i have simple realizations and those "ah-ha" moments, my eyes are opened to my insane stupidity and pride and i feel terrible for how i acted. so thank you for your patience and i'm sorry for thinking i knew best and for losing sight of what really matters. and now i need to remember and change my blasted ways!
adventures for tomorrow...
recruiting trip to st. george and who knows what else!
yes, i'm quoting the song by the ting tings cause that's the first thing i thought of when we were taking about names in institute... yeah, the ting tings and institute probably shouldn't mix!
Helaman 5:6... "remember your names"
this is when Helaman counsels his sons Nephi and Lehi to remember who they were named after and what they represent.
application...i haven't been named after anyone particular, but i do hold my families name and need to honor it and live up to the standards my family and ancestors have set. i need to make them proud, and stop screwing up!!
this thought of "remembering" your name, segwayed right into our lesson about the sacrament. not only do we have our own names and family names to represent, but as baptized members of the church we covenant to take upon us the name of Christ and always remember Him. as we remember Him and keep His commandments we have been promised that we may always have His spirit. such an awesome promise! i need to do better at remembering the covenants and in keeping the commandments each day, but i also need to focus more during the actual renewing on sunday. Elder Oaks has a great talk called "Sacrament Meeting and the Sacrament" from oct 09 conference that we referred to today, and there's awesome counsel about how to approach the meeting and the sacrament.
anyways, back to "remember", here's a quote from President Spencer W. Kimball about it...
"When you look in the dictionary for the most important work, do you know what it is? It could be remember. Because all of you have made covenants - you know what to do and you know how to do it - our greatest need is to remember. That is why everyone goes to sacrament meeting every Sabbath day - to take the sacrament and listen to the priests pray 'they may always remember Him and keep His commandments which He has given them.' Remember is the word. Remember is the program."
another great lesson in institute that reminded me of the great significance of the sacrament and the incredible covenants that i have made. i have a lot of work to do in order to hold up my end of the deal, and i'm grateful for my Savior, His love, and the role He plays as my advocate to the Father.
why i love my boss...
i get a call from sam this morning whilst i'm in the office. he calls and says, "hey lace, i just wanted to let you know that i'm heading down to byu to interview for the 2nd assistant position." i just giggled and answered back, "oh sweet, you must have the interview, right after me." and we both just chuckled. he then explained that he was going to visit the "heathens" to tell them about our humanitarian project for samoa. anyways, it was a great way to start off our work day together!
35 minute run and planks
nutrition...
6:00am- apple
9:00am- banana and yogurt
11:00am- carrots and celery
1:00pm- salad w/chicken, peach and cottage cheese
6:30pm- 1/2 enchilada w/lettuce and guac
7:30pm- cookie dough! (my downfall for the evening... but i didn't eat as much as normal, and i don't have to make it for awhile!)
h20-10 cups
constantly learning...
i'm grateful for the patience of others. i can be pretty stubborn, cranky, and irrational a lot of the time, yet my blessed family and friends put up with me. i have so much to learn and to work on. when i have simple realizations and those "ah-ha" moments, my eyes are opened to my insane stupidity and pride and i feel terrible for how i acted. so thank you for your patience and i'm sorry for thinking i knew best and for losing sight of what really matters. and now i need to remember and change my blasted ways!
adventures for tomorrow...
recruiting trip to st. george and who knows what else!
Monday, March 1, 2010
new day... new week... new month...
so i'm all about new beginnings... whether it's a new day, task, class, adventure, it doesn't matter, they're great! i think i like them so much because i mess up, lose focus and motivation, or just give up so often that's i'm always in need of a new start. it's like the great repentance process... i screw up all the time, so i'm constantly needing to repent and try again. so here is my effort to start anew!
work-out...
1mile run and 1 hour power pump... holy canoly, my legs are exhausted! kara freakin rocked it! i think every move we did involved the lower body, it was awesome! my legs were shaking the whole time!
my favorite moves of the day...
-squats with the ball on the wall
-1 legged killers... normal squats and curtsy squats on a plate w/hops, lunge kicks, and lunge hops... we went through all of it on 1 leg before switching legs... it hurt!
-sissy squats with flys
-oblique crunch w/ball and feet against the wall
-1 legged crawls w/push-ups (my upper body is weaksauce!)
eat to win...
5:30am- apple
9:00am- baggie of tropical trail mix
11:00am- yogurt
1:15am- taco salad and apple
6:30pm- 7 layer dip, carrots, apples and pineapple... and bts cake! (it was marla's shower... so much for a new beginning!)
h20-8 cups and too much crystal light!
why i don't like to date or make decisions...
so i had a bunch of thoughts listed for this because its been a big part of my life lately, but i think they're all irrelevent cause i change my mind (or have my mind changed for me) like every 7 minutes... basically this should say, i don't like to date or make decisions period! the end... ha there's always a few exceptions!
i love my sister...
i finally got to catch up with my favorite sister last night, and she just brings a smile to my face! she is such a light and inspiration to me in everything that she does and just who she is! i'm grateful for our relationship and the special bond that we have. she is one of the few people who i can fully open up to and be my crazy self with, and i'll be forever grateful for her! love you malia!
goals for tomorrow...
get my run on... drink lots of water... go to the temple... don't eat chocolate... talk to sam about spring break... apologize... get organized for denver... live the life!
work-out...
1mile run and 1 hour power pump... holy canoly, my legs are exhausted! kara freakin rocked it! i think every move we did involved the lower body, it was awesome! my legs were shaking the whole time!
my favorite moves of the day...
-squats with the ball on the wall
-1 legged killers... normal squats and curtsy squats on a plate w/hops, lunge kicks, and lunge hops... we went through all of it on 1 leg before switching legs... it hurt!
-sissy squats with flys
-oblique crunch w/ball and feet against the wall
-1 legged crawls w/push-ups (my upper body is weaksauce!)
eat to win...
5:30am- apple
9:00am- baggie of tropical trail mix
11:00am- yogurt
1:15am- taco salad and apple
6:30pm- 7 layer dip, carrots, apples and pineapple... and bts cake! (it was marla's shower... so much for a new beginning!)
h20-8 cups and too much crystal light!
why i don't like to date or make decisions...
so i had a bunch of thoughts listed for this because its been a big part of my life lately, but i think they're all irrelevent cause i change my mind (or have my mind changed for me) like every 7 minutes... basically this should say, i don't like to date or make decisions period! the end... ha there's always a few exceptions!
i love my sister...
i finally got to catch up with my favorite sister last night, and she just brings a smile to my face! she is such a light and inspiration to me in everything that she does and just who she is! i'm grateful for our relationship and the special bond that we have. she is one of the few people who i can fully open up to and be my crazy self with, and i'll be forever grateful for her! love you malia!
goals for tomorrow...
get my run on... drink lots of water... go to the temple... don't eat chocolate... talk to sam about spring break... apologize... get organized for denver... live the life!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
there's never no point of no return
yes, i am a slacker and was terrible at posting last week, but ya know, that's just life sometimes! here's some of my thoughts and lessons from last week that just kind of accumulated over the passing days. i apologize for the sporadic, random thoughts, but i'll be more clear and concise this week!
Faith Precedes the Miracle- Tragedy or Destiny...
Spencer W. Kimball...
"We knew before we were born that we were coming to the earth for bodies and experience and that we would have joys and sorrows, ease and pain, comforts and hardships, health and sickness, successes and disappointments, and we knew also that after a period of life we would die. We accepted all these eventualities with a glad heart, eager to accept both the favorable and unfavorable. We eagerly accepted the chance to come earthward even though it might be for only a day or a year. Perhaps we were not so much concerned whether we should die of disease, or accident, or of senility. We were willing to take life as it came and as we might organize and control it, and this without murmur, complaint, or unreasonable demands."
what do we do with the dash?
we talked about this in institute today. both of brother norby's parents passed away in a two week period. of course he is sad and misses them, but he has such a comfort and peace about him because of the testimony he has and the strength he finds in the plan of salvation. we were talking about his parents' great lives in class and their funerals, and shared a thought he had with us when he was at the cemetary. as he was looking at the years his parents lived on the headstone, he said that it does not matter when you were born or when you die, it only matters what you do with the dash (aka... your life). so what am i doing with my dash?!
find opportunities to teach what you learn, only then does it become yours.
what can i do?
so my dear former assistant coach, kelsi, was in town for the week and she stopped by today. as always it was so great to see her and catch up, and honestly she is just one of those incredibly amazing people who have this positive, fun, and lively vibe about them. she absolutely loves life and wants to experience it to the fullest, and she really has! she's always the one helping out, asking about life or specific problems, sharing fun stories, and just the person that you can't help but laugh, smile, and have fun whilst you're around her. yes, i could go on and on about her. but today, her and jessica came and talked to the team about our new zealand and samoa trip just to get them excited and to know how lucky they are to have this great opportunity. i'm definitely super excited about it, and just get giddy everytime i think about the great adventures we had.
kels definitely had a lot to do with the fun and success of the trip just because everything is just happiness and fun to her. she seriously can make a game out of anything, and there's a great story in every experience, whether happy or sad. i just couldn't help but think how grateful i am for her in my life, and i really wish i would have appreciated her more whilst i had her. she's so rad!
so now i'm the assistant coach, and still have ginormous shoes to fill with kelsi's absence (yes, i know she's been gone for awhile, but still, she left a great legacy). all i want for this trip, and even for the rest of the season and my time here at uvu, is to do all that i can to help the girls have incredible experiences and learn the many life lessons that are in store for them. they are the reason that i'm here, so it's time that i truly but them first and do what i can for them, and for sam! (sam and his greatness is a whole other story!)
anyways, this is the saying that kelsi left with the team, and it needs to be me who implements it and make it who i am... "what can i do?" if i'm always trying to do things for others, and just "do" in general, than i think my time will be well spent.
side note... my mom is a great example of this as well. everyday, everytime we talk, she always asks, what can i do for you. there may not be anything specific for her to do, and really she already does everything for me, but just the gesture is amazing and i'm grateful for it.
jillian michaels' quote of the week...
screw surviving--it's time to thrive!
the end of randomness!
Faith Precedes the Miracle- Tragedy or Destiny...
Spencer W. Kimball...
"We knew before we were born that we were coming to the earth for bodies and experience and that we would have joys and sorrows, ease and pain, comforts and hardships, health and sickness, successes and disappointments, and we knew also that after a period of life we would die. We accepted all these eventualities with a glad heart, eager to accept both the favorable and unfavorable. We eagerly accepted the chance to come earthward even though it might be for only a day or a year. Perhaps we were not so much concerned whether we should die of disease, or accident, or of senility. We were willing to take life as it came and as we might organize and control it, and this without murmur, complaint, or unreasonable demands."
what do we do with the dash?
we talked about this in institute today. both of brother norby's parents passed away in a two week period. of course he is sad and misses them, but he has such a comfort and peace about him because of the testimony he has and the strength he finds in the plan of salvation. we were talking about his parents' great lives in class and their funerals, and shared a thought he had with us when he was at the cemetary. as he was looking at the years his parents lived on the headstone, he said that it does not matter when you were born or when you die, it only matters what you do with the dash (aka... your life). so what am i doing with my dash?!
find opportunities to teach what you learn, only then does it become yours.
what can i do?
so my dear former assistant coach, kelsi, was in town for the week and she stopped by today. as always it was so great to see her and catch up, and honestly she is just one of those incredibly amazing people who have this positive, fun, and lively vibe about them. she absolutely loves life and wants to experience it to the fullest, and she really has! she's always the one helping out, asking about life or specific problems, sharing fun stories, and just the person that you can't help but laugh, smile, and have fun whilst you're around her. yes, i could go on and on about her. but today, her and jessica came and talked to the team about our new zealand and samoa trip just to get them excited and to know how lucky they are to have this great opportunity. i'm definitely super excited about it, and just get giddy everytime i think about the great adventures we had.
kels definitely had a lot to do with the fun and success of the trip just because everything is just happiness and fun to her. she seriously can make a game out of anything, and there's a great story in every experience, whether happy or sad. i just couldn't help but think how grateful i am for her in my life, and i really wish i would have appreciated her more whilst i had her. she's so rad!
so now i'm the assistant coach, and still have ginormous shoes to fill with kelsi's absence (yes, i know she's been gone for awhile, but still, she left a great legacy). all i want for this trip, and even for the rest of the season and my time here at uvu, is to do all that i can to help the girls have incredible experiences and learn the many life lessons that are in store for them. they are the reason that i'm here, so it's time that i truly but them first and do what i can for them, and for sam! (sam and his greatness is a whole other story!)
anyways, this is the saying that kelsi left with the team, and it needs to be me who implements it and make it who i am... "what can i do?" if i'm always trying to do things for others, and just "do" in general, than i think my time will be well spent.
side note... my mom is a great example of this as well. everyday, everytime we talk, she always asks, what can i do for you. there may not be anything specific for her to do, and really she already does everything for me, but just the gesture is amazing and i'm grateful for it.
jillian michaels' quote of the week...
screw surviving--it's time to thrive!
the end of randomness!
Monday, February 22, 2010
"can i have yo number?"
lessons i learned, relearned or need to learn from today...
24 ring tone still brings a smile to my face!
i can text maegan a random quote and she'll "get it" and add on to it!
i'm a better and happier person when i'm busy and productive.
i've learned something from every person i know.
i hate the cold!
i can always count on a text from lauren!
i have a lot of junk!
the scriptures are true 24/7.
always admit when you're being a jerk... I AM A JERK!
having a blackberry is fun!
i am a creature of habit and have bad habits that i really need to break.
i'm ready for new adventures.
puzzles can be pretty entertaining.
i've been apart from my parents and brother for a day and i already miss them!
the olympics are amazing!
i function better when i get sleep!
the drama of the bachelor, never ceases to entertain me!
i can watch the office over and over again, and still laugh!
cottage cheese, cool whip, marshmellows, and mandarin oranges make a delicious treat.
give people the benefit of the doubt.
i usually feel the way i look... greasy and gross today!
just when i think i have everything under control, i better think again!
i miss my sister everyday and hate being so far away!
i am terrible at making committments to anyone or anything... but i really do want to open up and give my heart fully to someone.
when you pray for humility, Heavenly Father will always answer your prayer!
24 ring tone still brings a smile to my face!
i can text maegan a random quote and she'll "get it" and add on to it!
i'm a better and happier person when i'm busy and productive.
i've learned something from every person i know.
i hate the cold!
i can always count on a text from lauren!
i have a lot of junk!
the scriptures are true 24/7.
always admit when you're being a jerk... I AM A JERK!
having a blackberry is fun!
i am a creature of habit and have bad habits that i really need to break.
i'm ready for new adventures.
puzzles can be pretty entertaining.
i've been apart from my parents and brother for a day and i already miss them!
the olympics are amazing!
i function better when i get sleep!
the drama of the bachelor, never ceases to entertain me!
i can watch the office over and over again, and still laugh!
cottage cheese, cool whip, marshmellows, and mandarin oranges make a delicious treat.
give people the benefit of the doubt.
i usually feel the way i look... greasy and gross today!
just when i think i have everything under control, i better think again!
i miss my sister everyday and hate being so far away!
i am terrible at making committments to anyone or anything... but i really do want to open up and give my heart fully to someone.
when you pray for humility, Heavenly Father will always answer your prayer!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
"cheerfully do all things that lie in our power"
there's nothing like a rejuvenating sunday!!
missionary farewell...
it was my dear cousin's missionary farewell today, and it was amazing! steven has come such a long way, and he is just incredible! he gave a great talk about having faith in Christ and how excited and ready he is to go and do the Lord's will. he spoke about his love for his family, and it was just a tender moment seeing him get so emotional about how much gratitude and love he has for them. he did such a great job! he has made the mighty change and is going to be an awesome missionary!
i loved a scripture that he quoted about doing the work of God...
D&C 123:17
"Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed."
i definitely have a problem with my cheerfulness and doing everything in my power. i tend to slack off and do things begrudgingly sometimes, and really do need a kick in the butt to get motivated! "do work son"! but i'm grateful for the inspiration and motivation i can receive from the scriptures.
family gathering...
after the farewell we went back to brady and michelle's gorgeous house in bountiful, and feasted!! bbq brisket and salmon (i tasted it, as always, and am still not a fan!) and all the delicious sides and desserts! i've definitely eaten my body weight in cookie bars today! but it was so fun seeing the davies group. i finally met brady's new sweet wife and got to catch up with them for a bit, and being in the car with jake and my parentals always brings some great conversation. i love my family... i really can't say it and express my gratitude for them enough!
i'm going to start this week of right, and go to bed "early"! i'm exhausted and am fighting the constant battle of catching up on sleep! i have no set plans for this week, besides the usual schedule of course, so i'm looking forward to the adventures Heavenly Father has in store for me... and i'm going to work on doing things cheerfully :)
missionary farewell...
it was my dear cousin's missionary farewell today, and it was amazing! steven has come such a long way, and he is just incredible! he gave a great talk about having faith in Christ and how excited and ready he is to go and do the Lord's will. he spoke about his love for his family, and it was just a tender moment seeing him get so emotional about how much gratitude and love he has for them. he did such a great job! he has made the mighty change and is going to be an awesome missionary!
i loved a scripture that he quoted about doing the work of God...
D&C 123:17
"Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed."
i definitely have a problem with my cheerfulness and doing everything in my power. i tend to slack off and do things begrudgingly sometimes, and really do need a kick in the butt to get motivated! "do work son"! but i'm grateful for the inspiration and motivation i can receive from the scriptures.
family gathering...
after the farewell we went back to brady and michelle's gorgeous house in bountiful, and feasted!! bbq brisket and salmon (i tasted it, as always, and am still not a fan!) and all the delicious sides and desserts! i've definitely eaten my body weight in cookie bars today! but it was so fun seeing the davies group. i finally met brady's new sweet wife and got to catch up with them for a bit, and being in the car with jake and my parentals always brings some great conversation. i love my family... i really can't say it and express my gratitude for them enough!
i'm going to start this week of right, and go to bed "early"! i'm exhausted and am fighting the constant battle of catching up on sleep! i have no set plans for this week, besides the usual schedule of course, so i'm looking forward to the adventures Heavenly Father has in store for me... and i'm going to work on doing things cheerfully :)
Saturday, February 20, 2010
"show-face"
today was a volleyball filled saturday! i had the privilege of watching volleyball in salt lake today, and i tell ya, the byu coach said it perfectly, we're just here to "show-face". we know what players we want, and now its the waiting game of getting them to commit. so sam and i spent the day there showing our support. really, sam is the money-maker and its his beautiful face that needs to be seen, so why we both need to be there, i'll never know! but its always great bonding time, right?! and I get kind of emotionally and socially involved with some of the recruits, so i really do enjoy watching them play... and yes, i get sad for them if they don't win!
so yeah, after volleyball i hung out with my wonderful parentals, grandparents, and brother! it was a chill evening and such a blessing to be with them. people probably think i'm so boring, but i am perfectly content just being at home and spending time with my family!
work-out/nutrition...
i actually woke up early and got a little run and work-out in, amazingly enough! unfortunately my nutrition level started off well with some fruit, celery, and nuts, and even delicious zupas, but it quickly plummeted when i got my hands on trail mix and cookie dough, not to mention some serious carbonation goodness! oops :)
random memories...
when i was watching the figure skating yesterday, i was listening to the play-by-play commentary, and it reminded me of my club volleyball days when i was like 15. one of my teammates and i would always do the book and keep score at the table whenever our team had to ref, and we would pretend to be the announcers for the match. we would do voices and make up the most random stories about the players and just get such a kick out it. we thought we were so funny! oh good memories.
the other reminiscing moment i just had as i literally watched my roommate walk right passed my open door into her room and shut her door for bed, without saying good night or anything to me, but that's not the point... it just made me think of when i lived with my most favorite roomie and every night, no matter what, we would tell each other good night and then give each other a hug and go to bed. it was such a simple thing, but it totally meant the world to me. simple treasures!
tender thought...
so whilst i was writing this entry and thinking about the trials and struggles that i'm watching some of my dearest friends go thru, my heart is just aching for them and i feel so useless cause i don't know how to help. but the words from the hymn, "The Lord is My Light" came into my mind, and just brought peace. (i feel like just thinking of this hymn was a tender mercy because of how the thought suddenly came to me and its not a song i usually think to sing) of course i looked up all the lyrics, and have to share. it's amazing how powerful and profound these musical scriptures become during certain experiences.
The Lord is my light, then why should I fear?
By day and by night his precence is near.
He is my salvation from sorrow and sin;
This blessed assurance the Spirit doth bring.
The Lord is my light; tho clouds may arise,
Faith, stronger than sight, loods up thru the skies
Where Jesus forever in glory doth reign.
Then how can I ever in darkness remain?
The Lord is my light, the Lord is my strength.
I know in his might I'll conquer at length.
My weakness in mercy he covers with pow'r,
And walking by faith, I am blest ev'ry hour.
The Lord is my light, my all and in all.
There is in His sight no darkness at all.
He is my Redeemer, my Savior, and King.
With Saints and with angels his praises I'll sing.
The Lord is my light;
He is my joy and my song.
By days and by night He leads,
He leads me along.
the Lord doesn't just "show-face"... He's there 100 percent of the time, and He is fully invested in everything that's happening to us. He even knows exactly how we feel and how to succor and heal us. it is all quite amazing, really, and i need to do better at letting Him in and accepting His comfort and counsel.
by small and simple things, do great things come to pass!
happy saturday night.
so yeah, after volleyball i hung out with my wonderful parentals, grandparents, and brother! it was a chill evening and such a blessing to be with them. people probably think i'm so boring, but i am perfectly content just being at home and spending time with my family!
work-out/nutrition...
i actually woke up early and got a little run and work-out in, amazingly enough! unfortunately my nutrition level started off well with some fruit, celery, and nuts, and even delicious zupas, but it quickly plummeted when i got my hands on trail mix and cookie dough, not to mention some serious carbonation goodness! oops :)
random memories...
when i was watching the figure skating yesterday, i was listening to the play-by-play commentary, and it reminded me of my club volleyball days when i was like 15. one of my teammates and i would always do the book and keep score at the table whenever our team had to ref, and we would pretend to be the announcers for the match. we would do voices and make up the most random stories about the players and just get such a kick out it. we thought we were so funny! oh good memories.
the other reminiscing moment i just had as i literally watched my roommate walk right passed my open door into her room and shut her door for bed, without saying good night or anything to me, but that's not the point... it just made me think of when i lived with my most favorite roomie and every night, no matter what, we would tell each other good night and then give each other a hug and go to bed. it was such a simple thing, but it totally meant the world to me. simple treasures!
tender thought...
so whilst i was writing this entry and thinking about the trials and struggles that i'm watching some of my dearest friends go thru, my heart is just aching for them and i feel so useless cause i don't know how to help. but the words from the hymn, "The Lord is My Light" came into my mind, and just brought peace. (i feel like just thinking of this hymn was a tender mercy because of how the thought suddenly came to me and its not a song i usually think to sing) of course i looked up all the lyrics, and have to share. it's amazing how powerful and profound these musical scriptures become during certain experiences.
The Lord is my light, then why should I fear?
By day and by night his precence is near.
He is my salvation from sorrow and sin;
This blessed assurance the Spirit doth bring.
The Lord is my light; tho clouds may arise,
Faith, stronger than sight, loods up thru the skies
Where Jesus forever in glory doth reign.
Then how can I ever in darkness remain?
The Lord is my light, the Lord is my strength.
I know in his might I'll conquer at length.
My weakness in mercy he covers with pow'r,
And walking by faith, I am blest ev'ry hour.
The Lord is my light, my all and in all.
There is in His sight no darkness at all.
He is my Redeemer, my Savior, and King.
With Saints and with angels his praises I'll sing.
The Lord is my light;
He is my joy and my song.
By days and by night He leads,
He leads me along.
the Lord doesn't just "show-face"... He's there 100 percent of the time, and He is fully invested in everything that's happening to us. He even knows exactly how we feel and how to succor and heal us. it is all quite amazing, really, and i need to do better at letting Him in and accepting His comfort and counsel.
by small and simple things, do great things come to pass!
happy saturday night.
Friday, February 19, 2010
"fashion show, fashion show, fashion show at lunch"
flavor of the day...
strawberry dragonfruit sobe lifewater... delicious, zero calories, and vitamin enhanced!
work-out...
2 mile run-kickboxing-20 minute cardio (treadmill/eliptical)-planks-lunges... planks are amazing-lunges still kick my butt-kara never ceases to kick my butt! good morning!
nutrition...
5:30am- apple
8:45am- egg sandwich, banana, sugar-free chocolate milk
11:00am- grapes
1:00pm- turkey/lettuce wraps w/mustard and yogurt covered pretzels
5:30pm- hand full of chocolate chips
9:00pm- carrots w/bbq sauce and cinnamon life cereal w/milk
h20- 10 cup
enlightenment...
i've had a lot of thoughts today about my strengths and weaknesses as a human being, and i'm feeling the weight of those many weaknesses. it's definitely a humbling experience to recognize my faults and even to have them pointed out to me, but i think that it is imperative if i want to progress in this life. i can't really put into words all the feelings that i've had for the past little while and i don't have enough time, but i basically feel very selfish and prideful. i thought i was doing well with learning and trying to better myself, but i've come to the realization that i can learn as much as i want but if i don't apply it, it is useless. my sincere apologies for the neglect and carelessness i have shown my dear friends and family. i will do better with balancing my focus to not just my own self-improvement, but to focus more on serving and showing love and concern to others.
and of course my scripture reading went hand-in-hand with my the happenings in my life... amazing how that happens!
2 Nephi 31:19-20...
"...after ye have gotten into this strait and narrow path, I would ask if all is done? Behold, I say unto you, Nay; for ye have not come thus far save it were by the word of Christ with unshaken faith in him, relying wholly upon the merits of him who is mighty to save.
Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of home, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore if ye shall press forward, feasting upson the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life."
ps... i love all the "if... then..." statements/promises in this chapter!
thank goodness it is friday! even though the weekend will be dampened by a tournament tomorrow, my family is here which makes it all better!
*and yes, i love the office!!
strawberry dragonfruit sobe lifewater... delicious, zero calories, and vitamin enhanced!
work-out...
2 mile run-kickboxing-20 minute cardio (treadmill/eliptical)-planks-lunges... planks are amazing-lunges still kick my butt-kara never ceases to kick my butt! good morning!
nutrition...
5:30am- apple
8:45am- egg sandwich, banana, sugar-free chocolate milk
11:00am- grapes
1:00pm- turkey/lettuce wraps w/mustard and yogurt covered pretzels
5:30pm- hand full of chocolate chips
9:00pm- carrots w/bbq sauce and cinnamon life cereal w/milk
h20- 10 cup
enlightenment...
i've had a lot of thoughts today about my strengths and weaknesses as a human being, and i'm feeling the weight of those many weaknesses. it's definitely a humbling experience to recognize my faults and even to have them pointed out to me, but i think that it is imperative if i want to progress in this life. i can't really put into words all the feelings that i've had for the past little while and i don't have enough time, but i basically feel very selfish and prideful. i thought i was doing well with learning and trying to better myself, but i've come to the realization that i can learn as much as i want but if i don't apply it, it is useless. my sincere apologies for the neglect and carelessness i have shown my dear friends and family. i will do better with balancing my focus to not just my own self-improvement, but to focus more on serving and showing love and concern to others.
and of course my scripture reading went hand-in-hand with my the happenings in my life... amazing how that happens!
2 Nephi 31:19-20...
"...after ye have gotten into this strait and narrow path, I would ask if all is done? Behold, I say unto you, Nay; for ye have not come thus far save it were by the word of Christ with unshaken faith in him, relying wholly upon the merits of him who is mighty to save.
Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of home, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore if ye shall press forward, feasting upson the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life."
ps... i love all the "if... then..." statements/promises in this chapter!
thank goodness it is friday! even though the weekend will be dampened by a tournament tomorrow, my family is here which makes it all better!
*and yes, i love the office!!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
"boy, have you lost your mind, cause i'll help you find it?!"
it's not your ability, but your accountability that determines your success
i love thursdays! institute, early work-outs with the girls (meaning short work day for me), and tomorrow is friday! and it snowed this morning which was beautiful, whilst warm and inside of course! i saw "valentine's day" with my homies and loved it! there were so many different stories and fun characters which was perfect for my ADHD :) and i even got to talk to my dear friend of the best today which was so fun, and mom of course! but skype is amazing, and i'm so grateful for the incredible people in my life, i seriously lucked out and am so grateful for their patience with me! today was great!
work-out...
6am power pump (not as good as kara's class, but i'll take it)... 40 minute cardio on the treadmill (i was having some weird hip pain, but it's cool, game on tomorrow!)
nutrition...
5:30am- apple
8:00am- cinnamon life cereal w/skim milk and banana
11:00am- grapes and yogurt
1:30pm- turkey-lettuce wraps w/mustard, saltine crackers
5:00pm- almonds, celery, cucumbers w/fat-free ranch... and a diet-caffeine-free-coke
8:00pm- cinnamon life cereal w/skim milk and a handful of semi-sweet chocolat chips
h20-10 cups
attitude of a celestial person...
we learned about 3 Nephi 8-11 this morning, and i just love how brother norby applies the lessons of the Book of Mormon to us, here, right now. so these great chapters take place right before Christ visits america when there is just utter destruction, it's a "pattern for the second coming" so-to-speak. we didn't focus on the wickedness and destruction, but more about the "attitudes of a celestial person" that are hidden throughout chapter.
-be at the temple
-speak of Christ
-feel the voice of the Savior
-open ears and eyes
-look steadfastly towards heaven
-humility
-willing to call upon the Lord- prayer
-learn and testify of Christ
-praise and worship God
i think i've read this chapter many times, and i've never thought to put it in that celestial perspective. that's why i love institute, just for the new applications and perspectives it brings. i'm so blessed to have such easy access to it. i am grateful for such amazing teachers, like brother norby, who share their knowledge and testimonies and bring the doctrines of the gospel to a new light. and yes, i have to make some serious attitude adjustments if i want to make it to the celestial kingdom!
the church is a hospital for sinners, not a sanctuary for saints.
if we're not stretched out on our own cross, we should be under someone else's... loving, serving, and working to ease their burden.
i love thursdays! institute, early work-outs with the girls (meaning short work day for me), and tomorrow is friday! and it snowed this morning which was beautiful, whilst warm and inside of course! i saw "valentine's day" with my homies and loved it! there were so many different stories and fun characters which was perfect for my ADHD :) and i even got to talk to my dear friend of the best today which was so fun, and mom of course! but skype is amazing, and i'm so grateful for the incredible people in my life, i seriously lucked out and am so grateful for their patience with me! today was great!
work-out...
6am power pump (not as good as kara's class, but i'll take it)... 40 minute cardio on the treadmill (i was having some weird hip pain, but it's cool, game on tomorrow!)
nutrition...
5:30am- apple
8:00am- cinnamon life cereal w/skim milk and banana
11:00am- grapes and yogurt
1:30pm- turkey-lettuce wraps w/mustard, saltine crackers
5:00pm- almonds, celery, cucumbers w/fat-free ranch... and a diet-caffeine-free-coke
8:00pm- cinnamon life cereal w/skim milk and a handful of semi-sweet chocolat chips
h20-10 cups
attitude of a celestial person...
we learned about 3 Nephi 8-11 this morning, and i just love how brother norby applies the lessons of the Book of Mormon to us, here, right now. so these great chapters take place right before Christ visits america when there is just utter destruction, it's a "pattern for the second coming" so-to-speak. we didn't focus on the wickedness and destruction, but more about the "attitudes of a celestial person" that are hidden throughout chapter.
-be at the temple
-speak of Christ
-feel the voice of the Savior
-open ears and eyes
-look steadfastly towards heaven
-humility
-willing to call upon the Lord- prayer
-learn and testify of Christ
-praise and worship God
i think i've read this chapter many times, and i've never thought to put it in that celestial perspective. that's why i love institute, just for the new applications and perspectives it brings. i'm so blessed to have such easy access to it. i am grateful for such amazing teachers, like brother norby, who share their knowledge and testimonies and bring the doctrines of the gospel to a new light. and yes, i have to make some serious attitude adjustments if i want to make it to the celestial kingdom!
the church is a hospital for sinners, not a sanctuary for saints.
if we're not stretched out on our own cross, we should be under someone else's... loving, serving, and working to ease their burden.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
just take the next small step...
life lessons...
i got this list of "life lessons" from a friend, and i just love how they put the day-to-day and just life in perspective. here are some of my favorites...
*life isn't fair, but its still good.
*when in doubt, just take the next small step.
*don't take yourself too seriously. no one else does.
*cry with someone. it's more healing than crying alone.
*when it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
*don't compare your life to others'. you have no idea what their journey is all about.
*everything can change in the blink of an eye. but don't worry; God never blinks.
*life is too short for long pity parties. get busy living, or get busy dying.
*burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. don't save it for a special occasion. today is special!
*overprepare, then go with the flow.
*no one is in charge of your happiness except you.
*frame ever so-called disaster with these words: "in five years, will this matter?"
*what other people think of you is none of your business.
*if we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
*all that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
*no matter how you feel, get up, dress up, and show up.
*life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
work-out...
35 minute morning run (i was enjoying my warm bed too much to get up super early! i'm a sucker for sleep!)... 2 hour volleyball practice (i was dying, so i can't wait to see what real practices will be like!)
nutrition...
7:00am- apple
9:30am- sugar-free chocolate milk, banana, grapes
11:30am- yogurt
1:45pm- turkey sandwich, celery and carrots
6:30pm- eggs w/salsa, cucumber w/low-fat ranch... and cookie dough (i made a bday cookie and couldn't resist)
h20-12 cups
olympics...
just watching some olympics and loving every second of it! i just saw lindsay vonn win the gold, and those downhill skiers are legit! there were some serious crashes and they go so fast! amazing! and shawn white is pretty sick too!!
wake-up call...
so i started today off with the "life lessons" which i think are great reminders of how awesome life can be and how blessed we are, but i just did some reading in 2 Nephi 28 and that put life into a whole other perspective! it was definitely a wake-up call of what i really need to be doing. this chapter talks a lot about satan's "traps" and his subtle ways of getting people to sin and become complacent, and i know i fall right into his traps! stupid satan! i'm so grateful for Heavenly Father's mercy and the Savior's infinite atonement so i can not only repent, but for His help to lift me out of my bad habits, complacency, and to push me forward on the path He has designed for me. i have so much to work on, get better at, repent of, and to change, and i know it's only with the help of my Savior, and the incredible gospel and people He has blessed me with, that i can do it.
great day :)
i got this list of "life lessons" from a friend, and i just love how they put the day-to-day and just life in perspective. here are some of my favorites...
*life isn't fair, but its still good.
*when in doubt, just take the next small step.
*don't take yourself too seriously. no one else does.
*cry with someone. it's more healing than crying alone.
*when it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
*don't compare your life to others'. you have no idea what their journey is all about.
*everything can change in the blink of an eye. but don't worry; God never blinks.
*life is too short for long pity parties. get busy living, or get busy dying.
*burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. don't save it for a special occasion. today is special!
*overprepare, then go with the flow.
*no one is in charge of your happiness except you.
*frame ever so-called disaster with these words: "in five years, will this matter?"
*what other people think of you is none of your business.
*if we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
*all that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
*no matter how you feel, get up, dress up, and show up.
*life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
work-out...
35 minute morning run (i was enjoying my warm bed too much to get up super early! i'm a sucker for sleep!)... 2 hour volleyball practice (i was dying, so i can't wait to see what real practices will be like!)
nutrition...
7:00am- apple
9:30am- sugar-free chocolate milk, banana, grapes
11:30am- yogurt
1:45pm- turkey sandwich, celery and carrots
6:30pm- eggs w/salsa, cucumber w/low-fat ranch... and cookie dough (i made a bday cookie and couldn't resist)
h20-12 cups
olympics...
just watching some olympics and loving every second of it! i just saw lindsay vonn win the gold, and those downhill skiers are legit! there were some serious crashes and they go so fast! amazing! and shawn white is pretty sick too!!
wake-up call...
so i started today off with the "life lessons" which i think are great reminders of how awesome life can be and how blessed we are, but i just did some reading in 2 Nephi 28 and that put life into a whole other perspective! it was definitely a wake-up call of what i really need to be doing. this chapter talks a lot about satan's "traps" and his subtle ways of getting people to sin and become complacent, and i know i fall right into his traps! stupid satan! i'm so grateful for Heavenly Father's mercy and the Savior's infinite atonement so i can not only repent, but for His help to lift me out of my bad habits, complacency, and to push me forward on the path He has designed for me. i have so much to work on, get better at, repent of, and to change, and i know it's only with the help of my Savior, and the incredible gospel and people He has blessed me with, that i can do it.
great day :)
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
weekend catch up...
so it's been kinda weird not writing for the past few days, but honestly there were not enough hours in the day this weekend! home was absolutely crazy wonderful!
the brother...
jake is definitely my most favorite little brother, ever! he is seriously amazing! his homecoming talk was so precious! he had is guat accent going on, and even forgot some english words. it was priceless! i loved just hanging out with him for the week. as we'd just be hanging out, stories and experiences from his mission would come up, and i just loved hearing about it! it still super surreal to think that he actually did it all! he is amazing!
so the house was pretty quiet til about saturday! i left a quiet, mellow house to go recruiting for the day... yes, i drove ALL around the city and seriously went to like 7 different sites... but when i got back after a long day, the commotion had begun, and it couldn't have been better! you never know what to expect with the koelliker cousins! it was mass chaos, and just so much fun catching up with everyone! after a late night and some rearranging of the rooming assignments, we all made ourselves comfortable whether it was on the floor, couch, squeezing in a bed, but we just avoided the snorers! and all woke up early for a fabulous sacrament meeting on sunday morning!
it was pretty sweet cause the meeting consisted of kevin foutz's farewell talk and jake's mission report. so we got the best of both worlds, and i'm so grateful that jake's on the home end rather then the going out end! i love having him home! his testimony is so strong and you can just feel his love for the people, his mission, the church, and the Savior. he is such an incredible example to me!
so the meeting was great, and then it was back home to get ready for the luncheon with friends and family.
anyways, after lots of loudness, movies, laughter, story-telling, olympic watching, reality-tv show plotting, way too much food, great family times and unfortunately lots of work (living with sam and recruiting was just a joy), the wonderful week at home came to an end, and i'm back up in utah!
thank you to my amazing brother, incredible parents, family and friends who made this weekend so awesome! and i can't wait to see jake and my parents this weekend!
realization...
so after eating everything in my mom's house, literally, and seeing pics from this weekend... i need to pull myself together and get "healthy" again... aka lose like 20 pounds! i leave for new zealand and samoa in 2.5 months, and i need to get ready for those samoan beaches! so yes, i'm back on my healthy eating and work-out plan, but this time i have some more measurable goals set! hold me accountable k!?
weird dream...
last nights dream was pretty strange, and i woke up feeling so bad! i dreamed that i was hanging out with a bunch of friends. i was "together" with some guy and of course we're totally cute... but then i saw daniel amongst all the friends and he looked so hurt. so i let go of the guys hand and was trying to not show anything, but it was so awkward and it broke my heart! it was one of those dreams that i felt the heartache when i woke up! what it means, i have no idea! random!
stay the course...
"cast not away therefore your confidence"... Elder Jeffrey R. Holland
(3Nephi 1-2; Hebrews 10:32, 35-39)
"With any major decision there are cautions and considerations to make, but once there has been illumination, beware the temptation to retreat from a good thing. If it was right when you prayed about it and trusted it and lived for it, it is right now. Don't give up when the pressure mounts. Certainly don't give in to that being who is bent on the destruction of your happiness. Face your doubts. Master your fears. Cast not away therefor your confidence. Stay the course and see the beauty of life unfold for you."
"love is never lost. if not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart"
the brother...
jake is definitely my most favorite little brother, ever! he is seriously amazing! his homecoming talk was so precious! he had is guat accent going on, and even forgot some english words. it was priceless! i loved just hanging out with him for the week. as we'd just be hanging out, stories and experiences from his mission would come up, and i just loved hearing about it! it still super surreal to think that he actually did it all! he is amazing!
so the house was pretty quiet til about saturday! i left a quiet, mellow house to go recruiting for the day... yes, i drove ALL around the city and seriously went to like 7 different sites... but when i got back after a long day, the commotion had begun, and it couldn't have been better! you never know what to expect with the koelliker cousins! it was mass chaos, and just so much fun catching up with everyone! after a late night and some rearranging of the rooming assignments, we all made ourselves comfortable whether it was on the floor, couch, squeezing in a bed, but we just avoided the snorers! and all woke up early for a fabulous sacrament meeting on sunday morning!
it was pretty sweet cause the meeting consisted of kevin foutz's farewell talk and jake's mission report. so we got the best of both worlds, and i'm so grateful that jake's on the home end rather then the going out end! i love having him home! his testimony is so strong and you can just feel his love for the people, his mission, the church, and the Savior. he is such an incredible example to me!
so the meeting was great, and then it was back home to get ready for the luncheon with friends and family.
anyways, after lots of loudness, movies, laughter, story-telling, olympic watching, reality-tv show plotting, way too much food, great family times and unfortunately lots of work (living with sam and recruiting was just a joy), the wonderful week at home came to an end, and i'm back up in utah!
thank you to my amazing brother, incredible parents, family and friends who made this weekend so awesome! and i can't wait to see jake and my parents this weekend!
realization...
so after eating everything in my mom's house, literally, and seeing pics from this weekend... i need to pull myself together and get "healthy" again... aka lose like 20 pounds! i leave for new zealand and samoa in 2.5 months, and i need to get ready for those samoan beaches! so yes, i'm back on my healthy eating and work-out plan, but this time i have some more measurable goals set! hold me accountable k!?
weird dream...
last nights dream was pretty strange, and i woke up feeling so bad! i dreamed that i was hanging out with a bunch of friends. i was "together" with some guy and of course we're totally cute... but then i saw daniel amongst all the friends and he looked so hurt. so i let go of the guys hand and was trying to not show anything, but it was so awkward and it broke my heart! it was one of those dreams that i felt the heartache when i woke up! what it means, i have no idea! random!
stay the course...
"cast not away therefore your confidence"... Elder Jeffrey R. Holland
(3Nephi 1-2; Hebrews 10:32, 35-39)
"With any major decision there are cautions and considerations to make, but once there has been illumination, beware the temptation to retreat from a good thing. If it was right when you prayed about it and trusted it and lived for it, it is right now. Don't give up when the pressure mounts. Certainly don't give in to that being who is bent on the destruction of your happiness. Face your doubts. Master your fears. Cast not away therefor your confidence. Stay the course and see the beauty of life unfold for you."
"love is never lost. if not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart"
Friday, February 12, 2010
eagle eye... day 26
home is still wonderfully amazing, but i think the calmness is about to head out the window! tomorrow is when all the relatives come, so our house is going to be full to capacity! i'm rather excited to see everyone, but it's kinda bitter-sweet since i have to work this weekend too... oh well, i'm all about the good times and great memories this weekend!
eagle eye...
yes, jake and his friends are watching that great movie right now, but i'm also referring to being an outside looking in. it was so fun to watch jake reunite with his friends tonight! these boys have all served missions, returned with honor, and finally got the chance to be together tonight! i absolutely loved watching them converse and share their different experiences of the past two years. it was like when alma meets up with the sons of mosiah after so many years! just that same love and excitment of seeing their dear friends. and lanny came home so the precious brothers got to reunite too!
i'm so grateful that i've been able to spend this week at home with jake and my parents. i'm truly so blessed that i have such an awesome family and such sweet bonds and friendships with each member of my family.
another great day in vegas, and i'm looking forward to see all the craziness this weekend will entail!
eagle eye...
yes, jake and his friends are watching that great movie right now, but i'm also referring to being an outside looking in. it was so fun to watch jake reunite with his friends tonight! these boys have all served missions, returned with honor, and finally got the chance to be together tonight! i absolutely loved watching them converse and share their different experiences of the past two years. it was like when alma meets up with the sons of mosiah after so many years! just that same love and excitment of seeing their dear friends. and lanny came home so the precious brothers got to reunite too!
i'm so grateful that i've been able to spend this week at home with jake and my parents. i'm truly so blessed that i have such an awesome family and such sweet bonds and friendships with each member of my family.
another great day in vegas, and i'm looking forward to see all the craziness this weekend will entail!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
loving home... day 25
home is blissful!
i got to do a lunch date with 2 of my best friends and their precious kids! britt and maggi came over with their cute kiddies and we got to hang out for awhile! it was so great catching up with them... and oh the conversations we had! haha... these girls hold nothing back... i don't know if that comes with being married or a mommy, but really they've been like this forever! my eyes were definitely opened today! love it :) and i absolutely love that we haven't seen each other in forever, but we pick up right where we left off. that's true friendship, right?! seriously, i've been blessed with the most amazing friends and incredible family! why i'm so lucky, i'll never know, but i'm grateful for ALL that Heavenly Father continuously blesses me with.
blackberry...
yep, i finally got a big girl phone. it's pretty sweet and kinda complicated, but i'm hoping it'll be good for my job... why i want to be constantly connected to it, i'll never know!
movie of the night... the proposal!
i love that jake will watch chick-flicks with me! love him!
i got to do a lunch date with 2 of my best friends and their precious kids! britt and maggi came over with their cute kiddies and we got to hang out for awhile! it was so great catching up with them... and oh the conversations we had! haha... these girls hold nothing back... i don't know if that comes with being married or a mommy, but really they've been like this forever! my eyes were definitely opened today! love it :) and i absolutely love that we haven't seen each other in forever, but we pick up right where we left off. that's true friendship, right?! seriously, i've been blessed with the most amazing friends and incredible family! why i'm so lucky, i'll never know, but i'm grateful for ALL that Heavenly Father continuously blesses me with.
blackberry...
yep, i finally got a big girl phone. it's pretty sweet and kinda complicated, but i'm hoping it'll be good for my job... why i want to be constantly connected to it, i'll never know!
movie of the night... the proposal!
i love that jake will watch chick-flicks with me! love him!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
shear laziness... day 24
oh my goodness... what a lazy day at home! so wonderful, but i'm definitely looking forward to a more productive day tomorrow! it's so nice to be home and to just hang out with jake! we stayed up late just chatting and then slept in til forever! it was beautiful! then for jake's first movie home, we watched the dark knight... why so serious?!
i eventually got a good run in... it was beautiful and sunny today, so i loved being outside! i can't wait for nice weather aka summer!
i love everything about being home, especially the delicious food which is everywhere. unfortunately i lack in the self control department and seriously eat everything in sight! so not good! let's hope with a somewhat more structured day tomorrow, i won't go as crazy.
awesomeness...
grandma and grandpa davies got a wii for christmas, and tonight, after our delectable brisket dinner, jake and grandpa set it up. we played tennis, boxing, bowling, and grandpa even joined in on the golf. you can make your own characters for the wii, so we went through and made ourselves, and even made grandma and grandpa. our precious grandparents were so into it, and laughing so hard as we gave them different facial features. it was so fun just hanging out with them. i've seriously been so blessed with such an incredible family, and i'm so grateful for the special bonds i have with them.
ps... it's kinda weird talking with jake about the possibilities of seriously dating and marriage... he's old enough to think about stuff like that... crazy!
time for harry potter 6 with the brother!
i eventually got a good run in... it was beautiful and sunny today, so i loved being outside! i can't wait for nice weather aka summer!
i love everything about being home, especially the delicious food which is everywhere. unfortunately i lack in the self control department and seriously eat everything in sight! so not good! let's hope with a somewhat more structured day tomorrow, i won't go as crazy.
awesomeness...
grandma and grandpa davies got a wii for christmas, and tonight, after our delectable brisket dinner, jake and grandpa set it up. we played tennis, boxing, bowling, and grandpa even joined in on the golf. you can make your own characters for the wii, so we went through and made ourselves, and even made grandma and grandpa. our precious grandparents were so into it, and laughing so hard as we gave them different facial features. it was so fun just hanging out with them. i've seriously been so blessed with such an incredible family, and i'm so grateful for the special bonds i have with them.
ps... it's kinda weird talking with jake about the possibilities of seriously dating and marriage... he's old enough to think about stuff like that... crazy!
time for harry potter 6 with the brother!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
he's back... day 23
after a crazy packing session, a speed-racer-drive to the airport, unnecessary security search, i made it onto the plane! we took off late, and i was definitely at the very back of the plane, so needless to say, i literally impatiently walked off my plane a few gates down and meet elder jakey and mom! it was the sweetest thing ever! it's so surreal that he is here! what an amazing day!
work-out...
35 minute run... an hour of yoga... 35 minute run
*i couldn't sleep so i got some extra time in before i did the unthinkable and went to yoga with jess... not exactly my type of work-out (my adhd gets in the way) but my muscles are tired from it!
deliciousness... i will be healthy today!
5:10am- apple
9:30am- banana and apple
11:30am- oatmeal
3:00pm- turkey, apple, cucumbers
5:30pm- wheat thins
9:00pm- in-n-out and nilla wafers w/sugar-free pudding
h20- 10 cups
temple trip...
so jake got home at 4:05... we did the airport scene which was so awesome, then we came home for 2 minutes and headed strait to the temple. it was jake's special request to do a session before he got released. the temple is so much better with family, that's for sure! i'm just so blessed and so relieved to be home!
i know today's excerpt is very long or detailed, but i am exhausted and want to go hang out with my brother before bedtime! i love jake and my family, and just being home! it's such a treat!
work-out...
35 minute run... an hour of yoga... 35 minute run
*i couldn't sleep so i got some extra time in before i did the unthinkable and went to yoga with jess... not exactly my type of work-out (my adhd gets in the way) but my muscles are tired from it!
deliciousness... i will be healthy today!
5:10am- apple
9:30am- banana and apple
11:30am- oatmeal
3:00pm- turkey, apple, cucumbers
5:30pm- wheat thins
9:00pm- in-n-out and nilla wafers w/sugar-free pudding
h20- 10 cups
temple trip...
so jake got home at 4:05... we did the airport scene which was so awesome, then we came home for 2 minutes and headed strait to the temple. it was jake's special request to do a session before he got released. the temple is so much better with family, that's for sure! i'm just so blessed and so relieved to be home!
i know today's excerpt is very long or detailed, but i am exhausted and want to go hang out with my brother before bedtime! i love jake and my family, and just being home! it's such a treat!
Monday, February 8, 2010
living happily... day 22
explore...
exploration is just fun and there truly is so much to explore... new places, objects, people, relationships, food, the world around us... it's all just so exciting! i'm grateful for the exploration i've been able to do, and i'm excited to have more experiences. i really want to start looking at life and people with that enthusiasm, curiosity, and excitment! i need to take every experience and examine it and learn as much as i can from it. i have so many faults and weaknesses, and i really need to have that pure desire to overcome them and get better and just keep exploring the pure incredible-ness of this blessing called life. i admire my dear family and friends who already have that outlook and take everything as a lesson and press forward. it is encouraging and inspiring to see you guys work thru your struggles of life with that optimistic outlook that it's for a reason and that everything will turn out. i'm striving for that enthusiasm and love of exploration and experience!
i had the most random dream... i was with mom and jake and we were wandering thru some community, and we pointed out where the orme's and mcdonald's lived... then jake and i ran up a mountain and while he was throwing rocks, i was talking to Father Time, yes the Father Time. he was telling me about the importance of having a temple recommend and baptisms for the dead. such a weird dream! i don't understand my subconscious sometimes!
work-out...
mile warm-up... power pump w/ kara... 40 minute cardio on the elliptical
*i had every intention to go to the gym tonight, but blasted food and the bachelor got the best of me, which is really frustrating. i need to be consistent... and it'll be a hard time to start since i'm going home tomorrow... self-discipline lacee!
are you kidding me?! my favorite girl better be back, cause the other girls are just ridiculous! (but of course, they are all beautiful daughters of God!)
pure sweetness...
i finally got talk to daniel and i forget how well we get along, and just how amazingly sweet he is to me. seriously, i have never been treated so well, even from so far away. he just knows me so well... examples...
we were talking about tomorrow when jake comes home, and he was like, "you have a perma-grin right now, huh?!" which is something i'd always say during the wonderful summer. and then he was like "i'm going to call you tomorrow just so i can hear the excitement in your voice"... precious huh?!
anyways, he's doing well in all aspects. he's strong in the church... he got his first calling as a sacrament coordinator... he's going to do baptisms for the dead for the first time this week... and he's preparing to get his patriarchal blessing... i'm so excited for him, and i love hearing about his progression. he even told me today that i can count him as a missionary experience and just that i had a part in it. it was just sweet. he leaves for australia on march 22nd where he will spend time with his family and then meet us in new zealand in may. he's also in the process of getting everything ready to get a visa. so yeah, he may be in america for awhile.
i'm definitely excited for him, and as for me, i'm just taking things as they come! living happily.
TOMORROW... 18 HOURS!!!
exploration is just fun and there truly is so much to explore... new places, objects, people, relationships, food, the world around us... it's all just so exciting! i'm grateful for the exploration i've been able to do, and i'm excited to have more experiences. i really want to start looking at life and people with that enthusiasm, curiosity, and excitment! i need to take every experience and examine it and learn as much as i can from it. i have so many faults and weaknesses, and i really need to have that pure desire to overcome them and get better and just keep exploring the pure incredible-ness of this blessing called life. i admire my dear family and friends who already have that outlook and take everything as a lesson and press forward. it is encouraging and inspiring to see you guys work thru your struggles of life with that optimistic outlook that it's for a reason and that everything will turn out. i'm striving for that enthusiasm and love of exploration and experience!
"years may wrinkle the skin, but the lack of enthusiasm will wrinkle the soul"
father time...i had the most random dream... i was with mom and jake and we were wandering thru some community, and we pointed out where the orme's and mcdonald's lived... then jake and i ran up a mountain and while he was throwing rocks, i was talking to Father Time, yes the Father Time. he was telling me about the importance of having a temple recommend and baptisms for the dead. such a weird dream! i don't understand my subconscious sometimes!
work-out...
mile warm-up... power pump w/ kara... 40 minute cardio on the elliptical
*i had every intention to go to the gym tonight, but blasted food and the bachelor got the best of me, which is really frustrating. i need to be consistent... and it'll be a hard time to start since i'm going home tomorrow... self-discipline lacee!
eating is good...
5:30am- apple
10:00am- cucumber and 7 layer dip, sugar-free chocolate milk, banana
1:00pm- turkey salad w/cucumber and italian dressing, strawberry yogurt
3:00pm-apple
5:30pm- lettuce w/ 7 layer dip and a bagel
7:30pm- muffin and some, maybe lots of cookies with some ice cream... oops!
h20- 12 cups
are you kidding me?! my favorite girl better be back, cause the other girls are just ridiculous! (but of course, they are all beautiful daughters of God!)
pure sweetness...
i finally got talk to daniel and i forget how well we get along, and just how amazingly sweet he is to me. seriously, i have never been treated so well, even from so far away. he just knows me so well... examples...
we were talking about tomorrow when jake comes home, and he was like, "you have a perma-grin right now, huh?!" which is something i'd always say during the wonderful summer. and then he was like "i'm going to call you tomorrow just so i can hear the excitement in your voice"... precious huh?!
anyways, he's doing well in all aspects. he's strong in the church... he got his first calling as a sacrament coordinator... he's going to do baptisms for the dead for the first time this week... and he's preparing to get his patriarchal blessing... i'm so excited for him, and i love hearing about his progression. he even told me today that i can count him as a missionary experience and just that i had a part in it. it was just sweet. he leaves for australia on march 22nd where he will spend time with his family and then meet us in new zealand in may. he's also in the process of getting everything ready to get a visa. so yeah, he may be in america for awhile.
i'm definitely excited for him, and as for me, i'm just taking things as they come! living happily.
TOMORROW... 18 HOURS!!!
Sunday, February 7, 2010
SUPER - napping, cooking, eating, playing, chatting - BOWL day ... day 21
when it starts raining, it is too late to build the ark...
sunday school was pretty awesome today. our lesson was on noah, but our teacher definitely took it to the next level! he walked in with a brown snuggie on whilst holding a broom handle as his staff. we played "guess who" so he told us clues about himself til we figured out he was noah. we then went on a primary field trip to the parking lot, walking 2 by 2, where he showed us just how big/not so big, the ark was. anyways, it was a good lesson, and i really like the quote that i used as the title. we must prepare with faith cause we don't know when the storms will be here!
"nothing" cookies... a yummy, healthy cookie :)
1 1/2 cup oatmeal
1 cup wheat flour
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 cup canola oil (or apple sauce!)
2 tsp vanilla
1/2 cup maple syrup
1 cup chopped almond (optional)
1 cup chocolate chips (optional, but mandatory!)
*mix all together and bake at 375 for 9 minutes
food to the "superbowl" max...
3:00pm- 7 layer dip w/cucumbers (a great substitute for chips)
5:00pm- life cereal
6:00pm- "nothing" cookies... oh so many! plus more dip... and frog eye salad... and chocolate cupcake!
eating all night long!!!
*monday begins a stronger commitment to my "nutrition" plan... even though i will be home and will be recruiting all weekend... i will eat less!
i heart mylee...
me- what are you from "hickville"?
mylee- no, i'm from standardsville.
game night...
yes, we watched the superbowl, which for me consisted of getting laundry done, talking to my beautiful sister and niece, and just chillin. i wasn't really into the game til like the last quarter. then us girls played a game called "rules". it was fun and just a good night with friends.
its so interesting to me talk to my friends and hear their stories, whether its about who they kissed this week while they're dating this person, or just what they would love to do, or how they feel about things, and really most of the time i feel completely different about something and they do things that i wouldn't even think about. it just makes me think ya know, am i doing something wrong or not doing enough, or aren't good enough. just some weird thoughts, but either way i'm grateful for my experiences and the people in my life who are constantly teaching me things and being patient with me. i am very blessed, and think i've been protected in a sense. i don't know, just my thoughts of the evening.
2 days and i get to be home with my brother... pure happiness!
sunday school was pretty awesome today. our lesson was on noah, but our teacher definitely took it to the next level! he walked in with a brown snuggie on whilst holding a broom handle as his staff. we played "guess who" so he told us clues about himself til we figured out he was noah. we then went on a primary field trip to the parking lot, walking 2 by 2, where he showed us just how big/not so big, the ark was. anyways, it was a good lesson, and i really like the quote that i used as the title. we must prepare with faith cause we don't know when the storms will be here!
"nothing" cookies... a yummy, healthy cookie :)
1 1/2 cup oatmeal
1 cup wheat flour
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 cup canola oil (or apple sauce!)
2 tsp vanilla
1/2 cup maple syrup
1 cup chopped almond (optional)
1 cup chocolate chips (optional, but mandatory!)
*mix all together and bake at 375 for 9 minutes
food to the "superbowl" max...
3:00pm- 7 layer dip w/cucumbers (a great substitute for chips)
5:00pm- life cereal
6:00pm- "nothing" cookies... oh so many! plus more dip... and frog eye salad... and chocolate cupcake!
eating all night long!!!
*monday begins a stronger commitment to my "nutrition" plan... even though i will be home and will be recruiting all weekend... i will eat less!
i heart mylee...
me- what are you from "hickville"?
mylee- no, i'm from standardsville.
game night...
yes, we watched the superbowl, which for me consisted of getting laundry done, talking to my beautiful sister and niece, and just chillin. i wasn't really into the game til like the last quarter. then us girls played a game called "rules". it was fun and just a good night with friends.
its so interesting to me talk to my friends and hear their stories, whether its about who they kissed this week while they're dating this person, or just what they would love to do, or how they feel about things, and really most of the time i feel completely different about something and they do things that i wouldn't even think about. it just makes me think ya know, am i doing something wrong or not doing enough, or aren't good enough. just some weird thoughts, but either way i'm grateful for my experiences and the people in my life who are constantly teaching me things and being patient with me. i am very blessed, and think i've been protected in a sense. i don't know, just my thoughts of the evening.
2 days and i get to be home with my brother... pure happiness!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
SAT-ur-DAY... day 20
so today will be short, as i feel all of these posts will be on days that i spend in gym filled with bouncing balls, cheering, fists pumping, bodies flying, gripping parents, chatty coaches, facepacks, floor burns, and all the greatness of the wonderful sport of volleyball!
today was actually pretty fun and enjoyable! yes, i'm exhausted and it was definitely a LONG day in the gym, but it was again, unexpectedly awesome!
i got to not only watch some wonderful girls play volleyball, but i talked to many great coaches, parents, and players... yeah i'm pretty sure i broke some rules, but it was all in the name of goodness! bonus, i got to talk to uncle bruce and janessa for a bit too!
i'm grateful for blessed days like this! even though my nutrition and fitness were non-existent, i feel good!
3 days til i get to see jake... and i'm pretty sure i told everyone i talked to about jake! YEAH!
today was actually pretty fun and enjoyable! yes, i'm exhausted and it was definitely a LONG day in the gym, but it was again, unexpectedly awesome!
i got to not only watch some wonderful girls play volleyball, but i talked to many great coaches, parents, and players... yeah i'm pretty sure i broke some rules, but it was all in the name of goodness! bonus, i got to talk to uncle bruce and janessa for a bit too!
i'm grateful for blessed days like this! even though my nutrition and fitness were non-existent, i feel good!
3 days til i get to see jake... and i'm pretty sure i told everyone i talked to about jake! YEAH!
Friday, February 5, 2010
ask and ye shall receive... day 19
hmmm... another unexpectedly great day! work-out... office work... saw "dear john" with dani... temple... date night... bedtime!
work-out...
18 minute warm up run... kickboxing... 20 minute jog... i got my butt kicked this morning in kick-boxing! holy exhausting, but it feels great now that it's over!
yummy food...
5:30am- apple
8:30am- egg sandwich, sugar-free chocolate milk, clementine
10:30am- apple
12:00pm- turkey, carrots w/little ranch
2:00pm- fresca and frozen yogurt
4:00pm- stirfry
10:00pm- dip'n'dots
h20- 12 cups
expect to be surprised...
so i'm not a huge fan of miniature golfing, but since allen asked me to go, i decided to take one for the team. to my great surprise it was actually really fun. we went to trafalga, and it was a blast to past! i felt like i was in junior high again, it was awesome! i actually didn't do too utterly terrible which was a success in itself, and then we road the go-carts and just goofed around. it was really fun. after, we ended up watching a movie at my apartment on my super uncomfortable couch which makes comfortably cuddling just about impossible. he did hold my hand though... and he kissed me good night... it was just a peck and unexpected, but he was kinda awkward about it, so who knows! i'm literally taking it one step at a time and am in no rush for anything! but it was an unexpectedly good night.
work-out...
18 minute warm up run... kickboxing... 20 minute jog... i got my butt kicked this morning in kick-boxing! holy exhausting, but it feels great now that it's over!
yummy food...
5:30am- apple
8:30am- egg sandwich, sugar-free chocolate milk, clementine
10:30am- apple
12:00pm- turkey, carrots w/little ranch
2:00pm- fresca and frozen yogurt
4:00pm- stirfry
10:00pm- dip'n'dots
h20- 12 cups
expect to be surprised...
so i'm not a huge fan of miniature golfing, but since allen asked me to go, i decided to take one for the team. to my great surprise it was actually really fun. we went to trafalga, and it was a blast to past! i felt like i was in junior high again, it was awesome! i actually didn't do too utterly terrible which was a success in itself, and then we road the go-carts and just goofed around. it was really fun. after, we ended up watching a movie at my apartment on my super uncomfortable couch which makes comfortably cuddling just about impossible. he did hold my hand though... and he kissed me good night... it was just a peck and unexpected, but he was kinda awkward about it, so who knows! i'm literally taking it one step at a time and am in no rush for anything! but it was an unexpectedly good night.
nothing...
i'm trying to think of a quote or scripture or something profound to say, but i got nothing. but i do know Heavenly Father answers even the simplest prayers. i asked that tonight would be fun and go smoothly with allen (like we'd be able to talk and not be awkward, and that i wouldn't make a complete fool of myself) and it was much better than i anticipated. so i guess it's not only about praying and hoping your prayers are answered, but it's more about having faith that they will be answered and in recognizing the Lord's hand.
"ask and ye shall receive, knock and it shall be opened unto you"
4 days til the missionary comes home... yeah yeah yeah!
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