endure...

so i haven't "blogged" in quite awhile mainly because i have been kinda busy but also because i feel like i have nothing really to say. i was reading my past blogs and am in awe of where i was physically, spiritually, emotionally, and even socially... oh how i've strayed so far away. i don't mean that i've gone off the "strait and narrow" or turned to the dark side by any means, but oh how things have changed and been rather difficult these past four months. looking back on how i was doing before the summer frustrates me with how much i've let myself fall, yet motivates me to get back to where i was... and you better believe that i will get back to being "myself" instead of just treading water.

"Constant effort-- not strength or intelligence-- is the key to unlocking your potential."

this is my motivation to just keep going. and seriously that was the feeling that i got in the temple at 6 am this morning, is to just endure. get through the season, get through the rehab, get through this mid-season slump with the team, get through the lack of sleep and pure exhaustion, and just take one step at a time. i can't solve all of my issues and problems or figure out my twenty year plan right now, i just need to focus on enduring one day at a time and to find joy in the small and simple things. after this crazy time passes, then i'll get to work on figuring things out... but as for now, this is what i'm supposed to be doing, i just need to do it a LOT better!